Im ashamed of affection

[naive wedge]

Hey so uhh ive been dealing with some toxic relationships and it made me really ashamed and scared of affection and whenever its been happening between me and my gf i have a feeling that its "cringe" like for example i want to ask for reassurance because i feel really insecure in our relationships because shes lowk so pretty and beautiful and magnificant and majestic and ive been feeling that thats somewhat "cringe" I dont know how to deal with this feeling😓

Ive been trying really hard to make it work tho and i changed for her so that we could be happy but i still have problemz

[stiff pecan]

I understand where you're coming from. Has she been a better person than the rest? If so it may take a bit to open up to her, depending on how long you guys have been dating for. It's completely normal to have this issue when having handled issues in the past, which is entirely okay. Don't push yourself too far to try and change that part of yourself, as you will be able to get over it when you're ready. She should be able to understand this as well.

[naive wedge]

Shes been better than any partner ive had so far

And thats surprising since we've only been dating for i think 4 days

We were complicated for a while