near ravine
me and my ex bf went back to being friends a month ago and what i hoped to be us talking like always turned out to be him becoming more distant day by day. he said it was because of the guilt he felt and I understand that. I just wished he wouldnt have suggested to not talk to each other anymore because I rlly cant do that especially with my finals going on, I cant take the chance to go thru another heartbreak.
I told him lets continue the convo tmrrow since he needs to sleep. and rn im just thinking of the things I want to say to him. I want to tell him that I want to fight for us, for what we used to have and for the things that we’ve promised to ourselves. I get that hes scared and im scared too but I dont want to lose ‘us’.
Ive given him my time, love and trust and so did he.
we’ve given each other gifts and truthfully we’ve seen everything of each other.
so i just dont get it if we part ways just because the guilt is eating him up because he told me just then too that he feels bad for making me sad and that just shows that he still does have feelings for me.
and I want to fight for that tiniest chance that we could be together again because after everything we’ve been thru, it would hurt immensely just to be strangers again.
I just hope I dont mess up my words tomorrow and that I could help clear his mind off of things.
valid raven