Hiiiiii my friend I am so so so so so so so sorry for everything that you have been experiencing you don't deserve to go through this at all it's extremely worrying and sad. If you need educational support, I can always forever assist you and help you financially, and help you get a tutor if you need it, and I can be that sincere sincere friend for you!!! :))))))
Please don't think about killing yourself you are strong and capable, and are infinitely worthy. I will be in CRISIS if you do end up killing yourself or doing something you regret.
RECONSIDER it pleaseeeeeeeeee!!