I can't do it. It's really so difficult when you push literally everyone away the moment they start to play nice.
Everything they do gives me a reason to end our friendship. I push everybody away and I know there's a fog in my head but I can't, I really can't see past it.
#Avoidant attachment style
fathom anchor
sick lichen
I can't do it. It's really so difficult when you push literally everyone away th...
What are some of the reasons you push people away?
fathom anchor
hmm like when they're nice to me, I feel like they're messing with me
I feel like they don't know what's going on
sick lichen
Have you tried telling them?
fathom anchor
so I avoid those people as best as possible
fathom anchor
Have you tried telling them?
I'm not gonna do that
sick lichen
So what outcome are you looking for or is this more of a vent?
fathom anchor
I really don't know what can help me
but I am very sure telling them is not gonna do anything
fathom anchor
I wanna have a clear mind
to make decisions rationally
and not push people away for no good reason
sick lichen
It sounds like you just have trust issues
I have them too so I understand
It's hard to trust peoples true intentions especially online
fathom anchor
I don't have any online friends
all these people are offline
when they smile at me it gives me the ick
sick lichen
Is it possible you just don't like these people?
fathom anchor
I don't think so
I think I don't have any capacity to think about that because my fear overpowers everything
sick lichen
That's fair it sounds like you just need to overcome your fear somehow
Like it's consuming you and ruining your friendships
Maybe telling them isn't the best but besides that I don't really know how to help I'm sorry