Hey its Jotaro , I am going through a lot of things and hopefully with the help of this journal i will be able to keep track of those and tackle them and not let them affect my mental and physical health anymore .
#Jotaro's Bizzare Life Adventure
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Life is never supposed to be easy , as easy life produces weak people , and when tough times strikes , they arent able to handle it . But sometimes it not about having an easy life , sometimes its just that life has been so tough moment after moment that instead of fighting i feel tired , exhausted and demotivated . This year has been a roller coaster of emotions but for now its going downhill , and i would really appreciate help , advice , or just someone to talk . I have tried keeping things to myself but sometimes it doesnt help . And now its gone pretty serious since i recently got my blood tests and they were no where near good and due to the excessive stress i am taking its just getting worse . I can actually feel my mental and physical health deteriorating . And i want to fix it . I will try to post here once a day atleast , and in a good manner but that may not always be the case since i get anxious and messy sometimes. Thanks for taking your time and reading this <3.
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Day 1
17 of April 2025
I had an alarm set from yesterday because of the exam which was the final examination for my Foundation Course in Ai , It went well , thanks to my friend who helped me in the morning . And i had setup so many alarms that it ruined my morning , So i didnt get proper rest and did not want to go to college today so i didnt .
My whole morning went by because i was venting to my friend about my problems and i opened up after quite a long time and it felt somewhat good but i still feel numb , my classmate who was unhappy cuz i told him that id come to college today but didnt , came to my house to look up on me since i was not sounding like the real me on call . And he took me to the University where the exam was held for the other half of our batch today .
We spent some time there and had some awesome food , (food is the only thing keeping me alive atp 🙏) . And after some talks he left me at home .
As for now i have been thinking about my life choices and what i should do in my career as am totally blank
Here's the food pic btw
For now i need to focus on
- My Mental Health
- Career
- Uh yeah
I will update the rest at Night
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Alright Night Time Update
I spent Some time thinking about my career and have shortlisted some things , Its a Good Progress .
As for my physical health i did some exercise mostly push ones cuz am not going gym . And some walk . Had some nice time with friends on VC .
Improvements i can make :
- spending less time on phone
- try to work on a single skill or anything i actually enjoy
- read a book
- thats it for now
Good Night 17 and Welcome 18
Bye
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Day 2
18 of April 2025
Those alarms are coming in clutch i woke up at 5 in the mornng and i feel better . Maybe ours dads are right , waking up early in the morning does really help .
I am gonna spend this day enjoying myself so that i can study for exams that i have starting from 21 i.e next Monday.
Afternoon
I spent my afternoon playing with my friend she is an awesome fella , and also VC my college mates they wanted to check up on what we did for our projects and stuff and also show off the delicious food they were eating . My mom noticed that i have gone pale and dont look good so she is kinda worried about me and i know something is wrong with me since i feel pain in my chest regularly and sometimes in some stomach areas too .
Evening
I spent some time watching my favourite show reacher and then got to know it has season 3 aswell and now i make sure to watch that too , i also downloaded this new game (new for me ) called Evil Within 2 , i honestly wanted someone to watch it with me and i think everyone was busy and its fine , since i couldnt play it much either . But I played throught is first chapter and it really looked interesting i might start playing it on regular basis until i finish and might aswell stream it or record it for a performance benchmark video , and I turned the graphics to max so i felt like i was sitting in an airport cuz god damn i heard the fans of my laptop being so loud for the first time , but then i put my headphones on and it was fine .
I also drew Toji Fushiguro and it was after a very longggg time i did some art , so days are going better and journal is also helping + I am so grateful that i found these awesome friends on dc i can spend so much time with and not care about it . I will update it for one last time before going to sleep
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Night Update
Spent it all playing Smash carts with friends . Someone was really itching to defeat me so I showed them who is the boss 🤭.
It was so fun ngl , we had some heated moments but ending it on a good note is all that matters. Getting a really hard urge to sleep so imma go now.
Good Night 18 April and Welcome April 19
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Day 4
20-April 2025
First lets talk about why didn't i post yesterday's journal , that's because I didn't feel the need to .
Now for today
Morning
I have Gotten Used To The Alarms and honestly I love waking up in the morning as it makes me feel I have a lot more time than waking up late or around 7-8 .
I spent the Whole Morning Watching the show "Reacher" Season 1 and we finished it all ( Started from Episode 3 to Episode 8 the last episode).
Had some good food that mom brought.
Afternoon
It went kinda meh as I didn't much , I am getting used to waking up so much and it will take some time . I played some games and watched some stuff on yt.
Night
Studied for the exam a little, I am little anxious because this semester has been kind of a mess . I will try to wake up early and study .