frozen gyro
Its just, I kept talking to him, you know who, and I genuinely just, I know you told me to leave him and I will, I am, I really am but its hard when we have certain times where we're just loving eachother and then we're arguing, he told me he honestly didn't love me anymore, that he 100% didn't love me, and when I said he would just leave me and change and be better for the next girl, he said yes. No one understands how hard it is, no one does, if I told my friends they'd feel so disappointed and lied to towards me, its just so hard Ender, its hard to leave him he saying he doesn't love me, he's fine without me, he said he's gonna treat me bad on purpose and make me regret him yet I still wanna stay with him, I hate how I am, I hate how no matter how much someone hurts me, I always forgive them and let them walk all over me, I genuinely feel as if the only option left is to kill myself, I just feel as if thats just the right option, when I leave him, I know, I just know I'll never be able to move on but he'll move on easily and love another girl and forget about me while I'm stuck in the same place, its so difficult, I just wanna die, I wanna forgot every single thing about him, and then his friend is mad at me, I doubt she wants to be my friend anymore, why does everyone wanna leave me, everyone wants to leave me but I never wanna leave themI don't understand why I have to carry all this hurt and guilt and sadness from other people's actions and words and feelings they have towards me, I wanna feel numb I don't wanna feel anything anymore, I feel as if death is the easy way out, he doesn't even care when I told him that, he said "do you" and thats it, why doesn't he love me anymore?
This is a copy and paste but I wanted to send it on here to rant more and gain more help and advice