#Should I burn this bridge?

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frigid heath
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WARNING FOR MATURE TOPICS: SELF HARM, SUICIDE. --------------------------------------------

This Saturday my father ||Overdosed|| on purpose.

It's the first time he's ||tried to kill himself in 5 years (his 5th attempt).||
He has a habit of holding his own health over people's heads -after of course he verbally abuses you- and after his gall bladder surgery he was verbally abusing my step mother.
When she stepped out to get some space between herself and him, he ||threatened suicide.|| And of course when that failed to move her, he ||attempted suicide|| in a house full of my siblings and myself.

And of course, i was the one that ||walked in on him killing himself.||

Police came in and out of our house and finally took him to the hospital after what felt like ages. He's fine now, but im so tired of this.

The catch is though- this happened because the anesthesia interfered with the medication he was taking and gave him an intense manic episode. I dont want to throw him out of my life for being mentally ill, but i don't think i can handle this anymore.

I need an opinion other than my boyfriend's, should i burn this bridge?

cinder cave
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U burn it and ur younger siblings will be the one enduring it when u leave.

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But it doesn’t matter because they probably also want to leave

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This is probably heartless but if you just let him kill himself yall don’t have to deal with him anymore.

frigid heath
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Jesus man i dont want my dad dead

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You're right though, I don't want to leave them with this. But they don't even see me as their sibling and dont interact with me, i doubt I'd even be able to blunt this blow at all.

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I'm literally like, the rat in their basement or something

cinder cave
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Stop wasting time on them then why do u care so much.

frigid heath
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Oh! Why didn't i think of that?! I care so much because they're the only family i have besides my mother. Even though you have a point you're going at it with a sledgehammer. You can give someone some decent advice, but if you do it while throwing frying pans at their head you're going to screw everything up. Why even comment if you're going to be short and rude with me?

cinder cave
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Sorry if I came across rude

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That is just realistically what is going to happen in the future

frigid heath
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It's alright man, im just tense. You had a point every time though, it's simply realistic

cinder cave
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You will be sacrificing ur own well being to keep the family going

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Until u no longer can’t

frigid heath
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I've been doing that since i was 5. I literally cant do this anymore

cinder cave
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Don’t be ashamed about it

frigid heath
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Im 21 now and i think i need to put myself first

cinder cave
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Do that then

frigid heath
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I shouldnt be, they should for putting me in this position. I will, thanks man

cinder cave
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Take care

frigid heath
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You too

cinder cave
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U don’t have to leave rudely though.

frigid heath
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Hmm that's true,im not sure how to leave them. Ideally it will be quietly. Thanks for the advice