I don't know how to type all of this, it started last year where we meet and we would talk on and off, I was obsessed with him. In October he came back, and it felt like finally someone i was attracted to appreciates me. We dated for like 2 months before i really started realizing what kind of person he was, but i couldn't excape i was too attached to him. He was fond of necrophilia and often practiced it on dead animals. You think i would go but it was too late i was sucked in, he would just get worse, and he would get more and more abusive. He made me cut off all of my friends and only talk to him ( which he barely did lmao). I tried to help him he opened up to me, but he closed me off everytime, he said its a scam and he would rather be miserable. He said he didnt love me anymore, and that he didnt like me as a person. I tried so hard to be perfect for him but it never works out. After i think about it, he wanted it to end like that. He got off to my miserable life. He would be joyous to come back to the fact i self harmed, he LOVED to hear it.
#TW: Grooming, sh, necrophilia, ect
past estuary
And like, today i found out he was arrested last month for attempted murder, im not surprised. But hes going to jail for a long time. And im thinking mostly that this is good news and itll g3t better. But im also thinking,, i miss him and ill never get to see him again
But i dont actually want him again.. he ruined my life
He took advantage of a ill teenager
Him saying " you dont love me, you just love what i have to say " at the end just sucks
He never realized how much i loved him
And how much i would have done for him, i tried to help him but i couldn't
I feel at fault that i couldn't stop him i tried