#disclaimer: last year I attempted to km but I remember the people I cared about and how they would feel if I did that. Like my parents who would feel ashamed and wonder why I didn't tell them anything about what was going on. And my friends who supported me through the hardships and them constantly telling me it's not worth km I just need someone to yap to about my problems pls I need help seriously I thinking about km again and the feeling is killing me
#Wanna end it all but nah
serene garnet
woven light
<#957606837899903057>: last year I attempted to km but I remember the people I c...
Yap to me
hearty path
I have tried but was stoped by my subconscious
woven light
I have tried but was stoped by my subconscious
I have as well but somehow survived the shot
hearty path
Oh never tried that
woven light
Oh never tried that
In the neck. I'm not paralyzed so win win ig
hearty path
I usually try to hang myself got close
serene garnet
Wish I could use one of those tatics instead I use a blad to the wrist and neck
hearty path
Oh why can’t you what is stopping you
serene garnet
The ppl who I will leave behind to honestly they wouldn't care
hearty path
Also you know how painful it will be
hearty path
The ppl who I will leave behind to honestly they wouldn't care
Who would that be
serene garnet
Also you know how painful it will be
Ik I've heard my friends who have done it
serene garnet
Who would that be
Friends and family some of those so called family make fun of me for trying to kms
serene garnet
Ik but I don't stop being friends with them cus I just need ppl around even if their toxic or their habits are
serene garnet
Have you tried to find people who care for you
Yea out of 10 plus people only 1 cares
serene garnet
And ditch the rest
How, how am I supposed to care for the one person idk like being alone I just need people to be around me idk how to ditch the others
hearty path
That’s fair
serene garnet
I have toxic relationship with most of them I have gotten into arguments with them and they have replaced
hearty path
Sorry for asking but are you located in the USA
serene garnet
I have been called heartless and a monster when I was it them at their lowest
serene garnet
Sorry for asking but are you located in the USA
Yes why
serene garnet
No not even close
hearty path
Ok
serene garnet
But thxs for offering
hearty path
What state are you in if I may ask?
hearty path
Fair enough
serene garnet
Yea
hearty path
If you are willing to run away from your situation, I’m sure you could find something in your state for help or just use 988 if you just need someone a professional to talk to
serene garnet
If you are willing to run away from your situation, I’m sure you could find some...
Wish I could call but my mom traces my calls and she has no idea of my thoughts and me trying to kms and I have no thoughts of telling her
hearty path
They also have messaging so if you just go to Surge and look up 988 it brings it to their website and you can choose to either call or message them so it’s not traceable
serene garnet
I will try but if only my mom doesn't go on my phone she probably will and she reads my messages 😭so I just journal my thoughts but what if she finds them she will be livid
serene garnet
Why would she be livid
She's said that if ever to pull something like that she be disappointed and think I'm a failure and a disgrace
hearty path
Oh
serene garnet
They also offer website messaging services
It's fine at this point I don't really see myself changing from these thoughts and if I'm being honest with you my friends I met made me start having suicidal thoughts
They've been doing shit like drinking and smoking (they're Underaged)
hearty path
Oh
serene garnet
Yea😞
hearty path
How aftan do you see the doctor
serene garnet
Only in August
hearty path
Same… but I’m sure you can talk about this with your doctor with no issues and I’m sure the doctor would have your mom leave if you wish
They can have ideas to help
And if you ever need someone to talk to please dm me
serene garnet
Same… but I’m sure you can talk about this with your doctor with no issues and I...
Ill se if I have the courage to
serene garnet
And if you ever need someone to talk to please dm me
Ok I will thank you for giving ideas🙏
serene garnet
Maybe thanks for giving listening to me
hearty path
I will always be here to listen unless my school takes my phone away
serene garnet
Ok