Having issues with creating deep connections with anyone

[bronze crystal]

Hi! I am currently in a college. I have realised that since childhood I am not able to create any good relationship with anyone especially after we have stop talking regularly irl. I feel like since they aren't text me first back, they don't like me and I am going to annoy them. (My 7th grade classmates used to call me annoying cuz of my voice. Because of that I am not able to speak properly and I sometimes mispronounced words while talking, learning that I might be annoying). I just feel very lonely when I am in a grp hangout or party with my friends, I tend to be more quite. For me rn it's like just having a gf might fix this but I also have trust issue's so like it's fks me up badly. I just don't want to be like this.

[misty swan]

Same. You might be autistic like me and have difficulty adapting to environments.

I say just be yourself. A good friend will come along eventually.

[bronze crystal]

Oh damn. But its been 20yrs

Also how do u get checked for autism?