My mental health issues aren’t valid.

[naive glade]

!!TW: suicide !!

||Whenever I get suicidal thoughts, it’s because of my period. I can’t get any proper help either. Whenever I attempt, I never get far enough. I just want to try to get far. ||

|| I plan on attempting via suffocation. I’ll probably live, as usual. Tying something around my neck overnight. ||

|| If I survive without severe damage, I’ll likely get admitted somewhere.
If I die, I can no longer suffer.
If I survive with any sort of brain damage, I’ll focus on the injury and it’s troubles more than anything before. ||

|| All of this just because I made one mistake liking a post after not reading it fully, getting mislabeled and laughed at. 8 months ago. ||

|| I would be better if one of the people who noticed wasn’t popular. (About 16k subs on youtube, most popular videos breaching 100k) I don’t know why. ||

|| I want to tell them it was a mistake.
I always ask my mother if I can do anything like that. I’m not allowed. ||

|| I just want someone to tell them it was a mistake and i’m not an “anti” or whatever. My mother and therapist say it’s just going to make it worse.||

|| This might get removed because I’m saying I’ll attempt. I’m not sure.||

For context, I’ve got diagnosed Autism and “anxiety with intrusive thoughts”. It didn’t tell me what type I had. I suspect it’s GAD. I think I’ve had it since I was rather young, then got a lot worse during secondary school. I’m 17 now, 18 in september.

[oak jungle]

why do you feel like you need to plan your suicide?

your periods give you so much anguish you feel like you need to commit suicide?

[naive glade]

Apparently it’s hormones making it worse.