Fearing My Ex

[robust shale]

My ex really fucked me up mentally, she sent me to the lowest point of my life and I've been crawling out of it for a few months now. During my attempt of digging myself out of this pit she left me in, she found a way to shoot me down one more time. Now I don't go a day without fearing seeing her and it's stressing me out. We both go to the same college and we're in the same major and our separate school activities often use the same room. I know i shut down when she is around me or in the same room and it's making me panic whenever I'm on campus. I keep trying to remind myself she can't hurt me anymore, I don't need to worry about what she thinks, and just come to terms with how things are but I'm struggling with it. It's just living rent free in my mind even when i seek distractions, i haven't felt my mind be quiet for a while and it's getting overwhelming. I don't know any unique methods I can use to help me heal or redirect my thoughts. I'm trying to get tested for ADHD, I've felt like I've had it for years now, cause I don't feel like this level of brain activity is normal and it's something I've always struggled with, but not to this degree

[cosmic roost]

Kill her