#Feeling lonely and still traumatized... Recently blocked chat to my last friend left.

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I have been most of my life finding some friends. I suffer a lot when I'm alone.

Rn blocked my friend bc he was just making things worse. He just says he doesn't care about anything I talk to him, but yet I always try to interest myself on his stuff to understand him. We were childhood friends and he always has been my reliable one.

He usually answered me with stuff like "You just steal my likes and personality", and hurts me because I really don't have a personality since I lost it due to isolation from most of people.

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Dude like

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Isn't it worthier to keep him as your friend than being alone?

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I literally talk to myself because I hate being alone

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He isn't same person irl

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Is very weird

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How weird?

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He is always more respectful irl

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And I have confirmed that all his social media is his

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I'm holding up from saying explicit stuff

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Because it has been minutes ago

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Uh

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Idk how to explain it

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Aren't his social media accounts is his?

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With him?

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Sometimes even sleep deprived

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Idk if it's important to mention that I'm otw of a confirmation if I have ADHD

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I uh

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I don't wanna say this but

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I don't really get this straight

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Like

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Dw

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I understand

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I'm such a mess

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You blocked your childhood friend because he says he doesn't care about him but you always try to interest yourself to understand him?

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Right??

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He always says me stuff like "bro, come from Japan"

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But yet I saw a literally 3hr long video abt COD lore to understand abt the lore and be able to chat w/ him abt it

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Dang

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I haven't finished Azumanga Daioh in a year

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They all think I'm way to obsessed

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But in reality I don't even wear merch and talk abt it with any person

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But I'm too lazy to watch one

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Teach me

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Wish I could

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But I'm usually very bussy

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Keep yourself free if it's possible

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Free time is only time you can slack off

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I have too much pressure

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Because time can't stop for me

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I'm already 15 and I'm struggling w/ studies

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It's basically a day off for students here

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So I'm gonna skip that part

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It's fine if you want to skip this part

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I have blocked him everywhere

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But tomorrow I will be forced to stay with him

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My parents don't know anything abt what just happened

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Don't hate your childhood friend dude

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Isn't hate

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They're still your friends at the end of it

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Time*

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Do you understand a Lil of Spanish?

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I have screenshot

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Of something

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I'll try to read that

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Oh wait I can't send Pics lol

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I can't

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Now allowed

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Dude you can't?

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How

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Did I just-

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Send this

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Idk