i dont think im ready for my boxing match but i dont wanna back out

[torn summit]

im 13m and ive got a boxing match in 10 days but im so scared im gonnna do bad im so scared im gonna do horible im gonna feel so dissapointed, i train so hard but maybe im jsut not made for it, i feel like ive only gotten a little stamina in the 1 and a half years ive been doing this but some people just have low stamina and its not really changable its just genetic and im worried im one of them and my mom signed me up for it without asking me and im just so scared im gonna do bad i feel like im not ready and its so scary its so stressful i almost cried while training because i fealt like i wouldnt even compare to the other kids there i dont know if im right but i cant help the feeling that im not cut out for this but its one of my biggest passions and idk what to do im so scared and i feel like im gonna disapoint my family my friends myself and im so scared:

upd: i had a mental break down at practice ive got Pneumonia and the fight was cancaled im scared il break my no ||self harm|| streak and my no ||aclhoal|| streak its really scary and im honestly considering ||suicide|| for like the 100'th time ever and i just cant anymore im so scared and sad. and i have horible comunication skills and its the worst mixed with not wanting to tell my parents these things and i can only really communicate deep feelings about myself through writing cause then i have time to think of what to say and i just dont know anymore, someone help me

[untold bluff]

You shouldn’t put too much pressure on yourself and like you said it’s your first boxing match so just think of it as a learning experience, if you lose maybe you can learn from your mistakes, and don’t worry about disappointing people because you said your putting in the work and that’s all that matters. Trust me when I say this, I do wrestling for my school and although it’s not then same as boxing, the mental pressure is pretty much the same. Before big matches I would be nervous but as soon as I heard the whistle and in ur case the bell, you’ll feel much more confident, just trust yourself and don’t make a big deal out of it

[torn summit]

i know but i didnt think i was ready before that my mom never asked me if i thought i was it was just as soon as i was registered, and the only reason i insisted on getting registered is cause you can only do it in january and i fealt like i was gonna be ready before next year, i havent had much prep time she only told me yesterday, i would have upped my trainging intensity and fluid intake sooner if i had known but now i just feel rushed but i dont wanna tell her cause i dont want her to feel bad she was trying to help but i just wasnt ready and she was trying to be sweet but now im really worried

cause im worried il dissapoint my dad i have a massive fear of it cause hes one of my faviroute people and hes so nice and supporting and the thought of it makes me want to puke

[untold bluff]

Brooo trust me I promise all of your family members are proud of you no matter what don’t even think about disappinting them

And luckily they put you in boxing at a very young age so you will be a beast in the future bro

You said you have 10 days, well you can try to make most of it

Practice what you think you lack

[torn summit]

thx