boreal axle
In November of 2024, my best friend had passed away in his sleep due to a heart condition he didn't know he had.
He was my brother, he was there for everything. We played video games, watched anime, started going to concerts, it was basically almost everything within my life. Now all of that is gone. My passion for anything seems dwindled and I just keep thinking of him and how much I miss him. I look at the days he's been off on Xbox and it counts the days he's been dead and gone now. His loving smile and hearty laugh is now all gone.
I haven't been sleeping well or at all sometimes and have been disassociating a lot. I've been feeling horrifyingly alone despite being around my loved ones. I find myself crying every night and staring at the ceiling. I know I'll never be the same again but I feel like I'll never be comfortable or happy as well.
How does one deal with this kind of scenario? It feels everlasting and impossible.
rapid cedar