Help
#I need advice
plucky hornet
I'm in a situation where I have 0 goals 0 motivation and I dont know what to do
I'm 18M in college, i picked a major which i dont understand at all and everytime i try to study it it makes me even more confused. worst part is i dont even wanna be here
Why i picked it? I dont know because I genuinely have 0 desire to continue my study, I did not know what to do or where to go before I came in to college. My brother and my kins wanted me to continue to college though, but at that point I didnt really know about all of this college stuff. When I first arrived i looked like a headless chicken wandering around and not knowing what to do
And i have massive anxiety whenever i go to college, i look at my surroundings and they genuinely look like they want to be there. Whereas me, i feel like im forced to be there. Not only that, im having a hard time just to complete assignments and stuffs, my grades were one of the lowest ones in the class and i dont know what to do
Lowkey I wanted to take a gap year, but I was scared that my brother would get mad at me. I cant blame him since he's the one funding my family (both my parents are dead)
But i dont know, i never liked him much anyway, we'd always get into fights before our parents died and at one point I even stopped talking to him for more than 2 years