#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!
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Just for her to talk
and it frustrated me
because im in the heat
on my period
worried about staining myself
Especially since I was wearing jeans
and I was sweating so much
And I didnt have anything to use to put my hair up
And I just felt like crying
So I was frustrated alreadh
already
by the time we got home
I was just kinda pissed
I immediately took a shower
Thinking andy had a game
But no
He didnt
And that didnt make me more angrier
But I was still a little upset
After that
I think i ate bread
and drank milk
and I watched a movie
on my phone
outside
well
in the kitchen basically
And everything was okay
But
My mom came out of her room
And began to argue
She yelled at my sisters
She yelled at me
For what?
For being too quiet
And okay
I understand that shes worries
worried
And frustrated from me not talking
But I told her basically a couple minutes after I got out of school
That
I was tired
so I already gave her a reason
but ig she forgot
You’re more than free to do these things with your dad Ellie, I’m sure he doesn’t mind and he enjoys bonding any sort of way with you as his daughter
She most likely hadn’t your mom sounds like she has emotional regulatory issues honestly Ellie, but don’t be mad at her alright? I understand her love language is very unfair and frustrating
you had a hard day today lil one
Ling your so goated
you always comfort me when I whine and just complain like a poo. Not many people have this type of patience with me!! So this means so much to me. Just you stopping by means the world to me! I've been missing you so much. Tomorrow is my last day!! I hope i get to spend the summer with you and mel 
yes ling 🙁
yes 🥀
mel didnt come
which made everything worse
only good thing is that
andy kept looking at me
I would do that with my dad too
Me and my dad would wrestle sometimes
And that sounds like my dad too
I understand how you feel on some of these parts lime
I try to come by on discord time to time for you guys haha, I miss you and mel as well. We’ll play again soon!!
it’s progressing ( he knows )
W dad experience ngl
Me and my dad would also race up the stairs as well
He would always trick me by saying go check the lamp to see if it’s off or would always say what’s that
Lime we all have bad days
But we all care about you❤️🫂
I miss those times haha, my parents are too busy with business. We don’t spend as much time anymore and I spend most of my time caring for my sister
W papa
I care about you too ling and you too Mel
I just wanted to say I care about a friends friend
always here to lend a helping hand whenever as well
WHAT
guys
dont make me cry
wait guys I love you 🙁
I just spoke to my mommy
a bit
and I ran off to the bathroom to cry
and then shaved my thighs in the bathroom
because shaving makes me
happy
and then
I ran off
And hid my face in my sisters side 
This time
She didnt push me away
Which made me almost cry
Guys stop
I love you guys so much
im happe now
We love you too lime❤️🫂
One thing I love about people’s journals is meeting their friends cause Its like meeting their family
I’m gonna go read what you write in my journal
YES LITTLE MATT
@worldly elk
are you still on your deriod
mine is ending in a day maybe
guys be honest who is on their deriod...
What’s that
a while ago when I tried holding a 10 second plank for my finch thingy
@granite gull locked in..
Yes
she probably would've beat me right on the spot
tic voice reveal
even though
Mel and ling know what little old me sounds like
GOTTEM
And jessy
and maybe matt
I forgot
tic hits puberty
HELP
Hey
Why did I start singing in some of these
Hey that started jumpin hiem..
they*
probably one of my fav screen recordings
You GOTTA hear my little scream bruv @worldly elk
HELP NO CYRUS
Anwyahs
Bed time
Heh
I LOVE YOU ALL
I LVOE YOU LING
I LOVE YOU MATT
I LOVE YOU MEL
I LOVE YOU JECKA
Hmm
I LOVE YOU ALL GUUYYYSS
Goodnight!! 
Heh

Good morning
Guys
Today
Is my last day
RAAAHH
@granite gull
@summer sinew
Are yoy guys happy
and ready
heh
get ready well
no andy for ellie to be with
Heh
Already like
That last day
and I haven't even gotten to like
even at least pat his back or something
well
I did high five him once
never again
his hands are really sweaty

I'mma be very late
Oh
Heh
classroom changed
no more tables
only seats
mama they gone
also you are going first for science presentations
Cuz
Your group is stupid
Blame everything on genesis and Natalie!
💜

GUYS TODAY WAS SO COOLIO
WITH MEL
ANZ MY CUTE FRIENDS
And
On top of that
did my science presentation
Mr Cordera glazed us so much
and said our presentation was the best

Must've been the wind...
HELP
heh
You should have it
your pretty
and cute
Heh
And silly
And perfect
Heh
So in love with you
Wait
Who said that..
Must've been the wind...
Heh
im done shwoering
now
oh!
I took a while
showering
a really long time actually
😿
But anyways
Time to put ma clothes own
on
Heh
Alone changing
DONE*
HELP
okay
just finished texting a poo
now
ima giggle shit myself
HELP
ANDERSONS OLDER BROTHER IS SNITCHING ON HIM
LMAOAOA
#freehim

wait can I even show that
now im taking a closer look
ima
okay there
HELP
okay im back
um
so
I think
Most people
Including my family
Should know me well enough
To know
That
I hate all insects
Im scared of all insects
including
BUTTERFLIES
Like if a butterfly flies up to me
Im running away
so
I was eating
eith my mom and dad
And my mom
Decides
To point behind me
And say
"A butterfly!"
and im pretty sure there was one
because sometimes they get inside our house
the same with other bugs
So
Obviously I got scared
And she saw i was scared
And I even complained to my dad
I just sorta whined
and then
she looked at me
and continued to comment about it
Saying its behind me
And coming closer and closer to me
So I got scared
And left the table
And now shes mad at me for getting scared
And my dad is just
Idk
Maybe annoyed and upsef
By her

I cannot control what I fear
and he knows that
so

so tuff
I got 2 shirts
And a pair of jeans
And towel
And comb
And fan
And
Hand thingy
LOOK
WAIT THID IS SO COOL
I had that shirt in green
Heh
flare jeans 
This is so tuff
I will be going out
To shop
FOR clothes
Tomorrow
Because
There was so so so much good stuff there
I almost came
So so so good
I was originally gonna buy a baby doll too but I already got 7 and my mom didnt want me to even though its like my choice
but whatevaaa
I miss this eye contact
hes such a poo
I talked about him a lot today
To my momma
And she was like
Oh yeah hes gonna change over the summer
and I almost shit myself
Because
Shes right
But
It doesn't change the fact hes still gonna be funny
and cool
and kinda dumb
I hope his laugh doesnt change
His smile better be the same too
I still look at the videos I have of him
Lowkey
Stop stalking people
and people gonna get me for thsi
HELP
matt its not stalking you dumb nut
its called
Stalking
Going to his soccer game
He don’t know you lil girl
which is something a lot of the students did
YES HE DOES
and he knows my sister
And I know his brothee
brother*



Teehee
maybe...

I was gonna say the same thing i said to Ashley but I don't have the courage or the confidence to do so..
😿
WHAT
Babe
cmon
your acting like if
okay
well I was gonna say your acting like if shes the hottest person ever
But she kinda is
BUT
SHES YOUR FRIEND
Heh
You should be silly with her like that
Eho knows
Maybe she freake like thatuh

🙀🙀
Must've been the wind..
Pizaa..?
HELP
me too bro..
Me twouh bruv!
like how
um
blindon says it
HELP
OKAY CAN YOU GUYS GIGGLE
🙁
🙀🙀

um chat is thos rizz be honest
Ask
HELP WHAT
Heh
ok vro went offline
GM
turns out
a lot of people find ulises attractive?
surprisingly
BUT
If HE is "attractive"
theb
theb
then
people probably find andy good lucking too
🙁

Heh
399 days tg? ^_^
Cyrus what are you posting 
I was gonna say then end it
But that's too far
I'm not like that

Okay
Well
Watch me jump actually
HELPPP
dude they say yes
I can say end it but not my favorite thing in the world💔
Who????
The demons
Oh
Wait
Why am I so slow now

GOODNIGHT POOPIES I LOVE YPU ALL
Yall
My sister
Vanessa
Lowkey tweaking
Well she was yesterday
Like last night
Because Stephanie
Is like
In a way forcing her to take her to the gym
Anwyays
and Stephanie only goes to the gym to meet up with her bf
And Vanessa takes her to do so
But lokwey
Lowkey
Stephanie being mean
Like
Bc its awkward to be there with someone you know and their bf you dont even know shot about
So Vanessa was like
Lowkey asking Stephanie if she can work put with them
Because
She doesn't wanna be alone
And this poo said "no"
WDYM NO
LITERALLY VANESSA IS TAKING YOU OUT TO SEE SEBASTIAN
THE LEAST YOU COULD DO IS BE NICE??
And Sebastian
Omg
He told Stephanie this one time
He was like
"Does she have to be here?"
YES YOU LITTLE LEPRECHAUN
SHES THE WHOLE REASON YOUR SEEING YOUR GF
Omg
dont piss me off

Anyways
My papa just left for work
I rubbed his bald head
Heh
For good luck
matt just went to bed
🙁
so that sucks
im ahead by 3 hours
saur

Heh
Literally mee....
I just finished painting my nails
NY MOM MADE PANCAKES
MY
but I won't eat then
them*
because
my tooth hurts
so
I cannot eat them
or anything in general
All the lollipops caught up to me..
okay
My sister is crying
I didnt know
SO I went inside the room
Smacked her bum
I asked her if she was gonna poo
And
She like said
"Stop"
but not in a mad tone
More like
A sad one
And I realized she was crying
SO I skedaddled
IM DONE SHOWERING
TIME to change
pusheen and spooky bob because they remind me of @granite gull @summer sinew
Heh

he fell mama
YAYAYY
Yeh
BIG FAT RED GUY
Heh
❗️❗️
LMAO
mwaa..
Would you wanna share
HEY GET DOWN FROM THEREE!
yes
I'm hungry💔


Teehee

wait is that us or what heh
That's literally us

today was saur cool
GOODNIGTHC LOVELYS
I JUST HAD
A DREAM
OF ANDERSON
Heh
Anyways
okay
so in my dream
my sister
WAS acting up
Stephanie
And my dad was too scared to hit her or anything
But when we got home, cuz we were out when she was acting up
When we got hom
Home*
She ran to my bed
And like
my dad followed
and yeah
he got onto her bed and began to like
hit her

And I ran inside the room
And I started crying
A d like
And
I called out to vanessa
And told her that he was lowkey getting Stephanie with too much force
And she ran inside
And told me to stay outside of the room
So I ran off
and I think I ran away and to school
Heh
And during math class
I think
Mr chen
Or Mr Mercado
Was there
Helping me with this math problem
And like
I was still crying while working on the problem
Like I was still tearing up
And I think he saw
And in my dream it was Mr Chen helping me
But when I turned around to look up at him because the guy began to comfort me
I saw Mr Mercado
so idk
but yeah
then
Mr Mercado began to rub my back
and then he kissed my cheek, but it was no longer Mr Mercado, he turned into my papa??
then I forgot the rest of that part
then
I was outside in sunset
And genesis sat next to me on the grass
And Dylan sat in front of me
And Isabella behind me
And I told genesis to stop bothering
Me
and she didnt
so I crashed out on her
And screamed at her
And she ddint stop then
So I began to shift away
And then I laid down oj my tummy
And covered myself with a blanket
One that Isabella gave me irl months ago when we were still friends
AND I covered myself with it
AND behind me
Isabella covered herself too
And I let her use my blanket
And
I was kinda happy
Then
I forgot why I got up
But I got up
I ran off to some place
AND then when I started walking back to where I was laying down
Dylan ran by me and Anderson was walking to the area where basically we were all at
AND like
Andy had his backpack
And his soccer shirt on
And its funny cuz hes always coming late to school
Heh
but yeah
I glanced at him because he was basically walking next to me
AND like
WAIT
Before I looked at him
He put his hand on my shoulder
And I looked at him
And he asked me how I was doing in the park
And I didnt answer
I just grabbed his hand
And then
HELP
HE TOLD ME
He was like
you have a period stain

So I was like
WHATT
And he was like yeahh
and he said there was red
And when I checked
I didnt have pants on

But then shorts magically like
Appeared on me
And theb I was like ohh its just like
my
My FREAJIN UNDIES
that are red
so I told him that
and showed him the red under my shorts
And he was like
oh!
And then he took me to this store
And he like
now holding something in his hands
and I was just standing there with him as he ordered something in spanish
and then when he finished ordering
I looked at him
And he nervously said something
im not saying it
because its embarrassing
But I was like "ohh I dont know!"

And then I forgot the rest of my dream
But I woke up
Heh
and I like to think that my dream would come true on day 
just the Anderson part
Shwoeringcrn
okay guys
Anderson actually hates me
And called me all these names
over
a glancr
glance*
he said
im a bitcoin
And stuff
and like ouch
What does that mean..
I'mma doxx him
cuz I fw you and your brother
😿😿
Bitch
That fat piggy can't be talking
OH
I say bitcoin though to sound less mean
FR
No one nobody likes him
Did he look at himself
Hes lying because he's insecure about himself being on my 600 pound life
Asked me to be his gf
And
Ulises
Made me poems
Made me drawings
Glazed me
And etc
Like damn
HELPP
GUYS
⁉️
GUYS DO U GUYS WANNA CALL
Yes ma'am
Okiiii
ok
yeah
no
he hates me
and
ig
its not very cool
But
Guess what
Dylan
Ulises
And brandon
Don't fw him
so
lmao
SUCKS TO SUCK
At least my friends like me
i hope

mwa
Heheeh
Guys
I feel prette happeee
heh
Despite literally being heartbroken
Im still happy
Surprisingly
I took this better than I expected
Because
I thought id be sobbing and screaming
But naur
I wasn't crying over andy and stuff
I was just pissed heh
I was mainly mad over the fact he had been calling me this stuff without even knowing me.
but yeah
If he doesnt see me the way I see him
Then theres not much i can do about it
Except
Focus on myself

I think the reason why im not sad at all
Is because
I ran to my friends
And they all were so cool
And sweet
And literally were so so so so so supportive
Like
I ran to text mel
And then
I called jaylah
And she was watching all this happen in real time
While I was locked in the bathroom
Heh
And like
Yeah
Im just really glad my friends were there for me
And all the funny things they said
To cheer me up
Heh
jaylah
melly
jecka
lingo
