#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!

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spark river
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We kept randomly stopping

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Just for her to talk

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and it frustrated me

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because im in the heat

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on my period

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worried about staining myself

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Especially since I was wearing jeans

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and I was sweating so much

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And I didnt have anything to use to put my hair up

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And I just felt like crying

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So I was frustrated alreadh

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already

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by the time we got home

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I was just kinda pissed

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I immediately took a shower

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Thinking andy had a game

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But no

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He didnt

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And that didnt make me more angrier

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But I was still a little upset

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After that

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I think i ate bread

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and drank milk

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and I watched a movie

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on my phone

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outside

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well

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in the kitchen basically

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And everything was okay

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But

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My mom came out of her room

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And began to argue

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She yelled at my sisters

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She yelled at me

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For what?

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For being too quiet

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And okay

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I understand that shes worries

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worried

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And frustrated from me not talking

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But I told her basically a couple minutes after I got out of school

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That

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I was tired

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so I already gave her a reason

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but ig she forgot

nimble heron
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You’re more than free to do these things with your dad Ellie, I’m sure he doesn’t mind and he enjoys bonding any sort of way with you as his daughter

nimble heron
# spark river but ig she forgot

She most likely hadn’t your mom sounds like she has emotional regulatory issues honestly Ellie, but don’t be mad at her alright? I understand her love language is very unfair and frustrating

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Sadge you had a hard day today lil one

spark river
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Ling your so goated

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you always comfort me when I whine and just complain like a poo. Not many people have this type of patience with me!! So this means so much to me. Just you stopping by means the world to me! I've been missing you so much. Tomorrow is my last day!! I hope i get to spend the summer with you and mel rooHurt

spark river
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mel didnt come

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which made everything worse

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only good thing is that

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andy kept looking at me

worldly elk
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Me and my dad would wrestle sometimes

worldly elk
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I understand how you feel on some of these parts lime

nimble heron
nimble heron
nimble heron
worldly elk
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He would always trick me by saying go check the lamp to see if it’s off or would always say what’s that

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Lime we all have bad days

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But we all care about you❤️🫂

nimble heron
nimble heron
worldly elk
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I care about you too ling and you too Mel

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I just wanted to say I care about a friends friend

nimble heron
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always here to lend a helping hand whenever as well

spark river
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WHAT

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guys

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dont make me cry

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wait guys I love you 🙁

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I just spoke to my mommy

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a bit

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and I ran off to the bathroom to cry

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and then shaved my thighs in the bathroom

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because shaving makes me

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happy

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and then

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I ran off

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And hid my face in my sisters side rooHurt

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This time

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She didnt push me away

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Which made me almost cry

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Guys stop

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I love you guys so much

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im happe now

worldly elk
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We love you too lime❤️🫂

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One thing I love about people’s journals is meeting their friends cause Its like meeting their family

spark river
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Heh

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I LOVEEE YOU GUHS

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Heh

worldly elk
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I’m gonna go read what you write in my journal

spark river
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YES LITTLE MATT

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@worldly elk

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are you still on your deriod

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mine is ending in a day maybe

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guys be honest who is on their deriod...

worldly elk
spark river
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@granite gull locked in..

granite gull
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I gotta do 3 push ups a day

spark river
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HELP

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oh god

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I only do planks

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(I dont do them)

granite gull
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I rarely do them because I fear a ant will get on me

spark river
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HELLP

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I FOUND A SCREEN RECORDING OF A VOICE MESSAGE I SENT YOU

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Heh

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Wanna see

granite gull
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Yes

spark river
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Holy chopped

granite gull
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Oh yeah

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That time I recently got instagram

spark river
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tic voice reveal

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even though

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Mel and ling know what little old me sounds like

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GOTTEM

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And jessy

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and maybe matt

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I forgot

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tic hits puberty

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HELP

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Hey

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Why did I start singing in some of these

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they*

spark river
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HELP NO CYRUS

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Anwyahs

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Bed time

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Heh

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I LOVE YOU ALL

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I LVOE YOU LING

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I LOVE YOU MATT

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I LOVE YOU MEL

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I LOVE YOU JECKA

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Hmm

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I LOVE YOU ALL GUUYYYSS

granite gull
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Goodnight!! hamster

spark river
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Heh

granite gull
spark river
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Goodnight beauties

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Heh

spark river
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Good morning

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Guys

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Today

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Is my last day

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RAAAHH

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@granite gull

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@summer sinew

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Are yoy guys happy

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and ready

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heh

nimble heron
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u up early

spark river
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Heh

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yes little ling

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I woke up early

nimble heron
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cat_cry get ready well

spark river
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Heh

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im too lazy hamster

nimble heron
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doomed

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todays ur last day go child

spark river
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Heh

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ill ponder about it..

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LING

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GUESS

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WHAT

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andy said he probably won't GO

nimble heron
spark river
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Heh

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Already like

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That last day

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and I haven't even gotten to like

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even at least pat his back or something

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well

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I did high five him once

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never again

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his hands are really sweaty

granite gull
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I'mma be very late

spark river
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Oh

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Heh

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classroom changed

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no more tables

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only seats

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mama they gone

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also you are going first for science presentations

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Cuz

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Your group is stupid

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Blame everything on genesis and Natalie!

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💜

summer sinew
spark river
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GUYS TODAY WAS SO COOLIO

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WITH MEL

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ANZ MY CUTE FRIENDS

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And

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On top of that

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did my science presentation

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Mr Cordera glazed us so much

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and said our presentation was the best

summer sinew
spark river
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Must've been the wind...

summer sinew
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I would do the same if I had the confidence

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🦭🦭

spark river
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HELP

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heh

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You should have it

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your pretty

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and cute

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Heh

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And silly

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And perfect

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Heh

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So in love with you

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Wait

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Who said that..

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Must've been the wind...

summer sinew
spark river
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Heh

summer sinew
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Can I tell u something

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🦭🦭

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Teehee

spark river
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YES?

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Heh

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text me.. hamster

spark river
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gonna go showa..

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Again.

spark river
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im done shwoering

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now

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oh!

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I took a while

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showering

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a really long time actually

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😿

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But anyways

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Time to put ma clothes own

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on

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Heh

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Alone changing

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DONE*

spark river
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HELP

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okay

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just finished texting a poo

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now

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ima giggle shit myself

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HELP

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ANDERSONS OLDER BROTHER IS SNITCHING ON HIM

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LMAOAOA

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#freehim

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wait can I even show that

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now im taking a closer look

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ima

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okay there

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HELP

spark river
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okay im back

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um

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so

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I think

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Most people

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Including my family

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Should know me well enough

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To know

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That

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I hate all insects

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Im scared of all insects

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including

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BUTTERFLIES

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Like if a butterfly flies up to me

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Im running away

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so

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I was eating

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eith my mom and dad

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And my mom

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Decides

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To point behind me

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And say

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"A butterfly!"

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and im pretty sure there was one

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because sometimes they get inside our house

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the same with other bugs

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So

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Obviously I got scared

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And she saw i was scared

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And I even complained to my dad

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I just sorta whined

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and then

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she looked at me

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and continued to comment about it

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Saying its behind me

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And coming closer and closer to me

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So I got scared

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And left the table

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And now shes mad at me for getting scared

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And my dad is just

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Idk

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Maybe annoyed and upsef

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By her

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I cannot control what I fear

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and he knows that

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so

spark river
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Out rn

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Bought

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Clothes

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a towel

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and

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et

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etc

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Heh

spark river
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so tuff

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I got 2 shirts

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And a pair of jeans

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And towel

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And comb

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And fan

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And

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Hand thingy

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LOOK

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WAIT THID IS SO COOL

granite gull
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I had that shirt in green

spark river
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Heh

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flare jeans hamster

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This is so tuff

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I will be going out

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To shop

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FOR clothes

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Tomorrow

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Because

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There was so so so much good stuff there

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I almost came

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So so so good

spark river
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I was originally gonna buy a baby doll too but I already got 7 and my mom didnt want me to even though its like my choice

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but whatevaaa

spark river
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I miss this eye contact

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hes such a poo

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I talked about him a lot today

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To my momma

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And she was like

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Oh yeah hes gonna change over the summer

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and I almost shit myself

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Because

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Shes right

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But

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It doesn't change the fact hes still gonna be funny

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and cool

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and kinda dumb

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I hope his laugh doesnt change

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His smile better be the same too

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I still look at the videos I have of him

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Lowkey

worldly elk
spark river
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and people gonna get me for thsi

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HELP

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matt its not stalking you dumb nut

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its called

worldly elk
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Stalking

spark river
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Going to his soccer game

worldly elk
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He don’t know you lil girl

spark river
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which is something a lot of the students did

spark river
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and he knows my sister

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And I know his brothee

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brother*

summer sinew
spark river
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heh

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OH MY GOD

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that story made me giggle

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Heh

summer sinew
spark river
summer sinew
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Teehee

spark river
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WAIT

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we did it at the same time

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umm

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hello twin..?

summer sinew
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Are we meant to be

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⁉️⁉️

spark river
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maybe...

summer sinew
spark river
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Heh

summer sinew
spark river
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WAIT THATS SUPER CUTE

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Heh

summer sinew
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I was gonna say the same thing i said to Ashley but I don't have the courage or the confidence to do so..

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😿

spark river
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WHAT

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Babe

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cmon

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your acting like if

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okay

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well I was gonna say your acting like if shes the hottest person ever

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But she kinda is

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BUT

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SHES YOUR FRIEND

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Heh

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You should be silly with her like that

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Eho knows

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Maybe she freake like thatuh

summer sinew
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She threatened to

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Uh

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Yeah

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😸😸

spark river
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oh

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HELP?

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okay me next

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WHAT

summer sinew
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🙀🙀

spark river
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Must've been the wind..

summer sinew
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I want pizza

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😿😿

spark river
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Pizaa..?

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HELP

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me too bro..

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Me twouh bruv!

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like how

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um

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blindon says it

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HELP

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OKAY CAN YOU GUYS GIGGLE

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🙁

summer sinew
spark river
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Oh

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Heh

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T-thanks...-

summer sinew
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😸😸

spark river
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Heh

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I MISS YOU GUHS

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IMA SHIT MYSELFUUHH

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WHAT

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no

summer sinew
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😿

spark river
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HELP

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heh

summer sinew
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OH

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WHAT

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NO

spark river
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HELPPP

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LMAOOO

summer sinew
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WAIT

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IT SSID SHOT

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SAID

spark river
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YEAH

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ON ACCIDENT

summer sinew
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HELp

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NO

spark river
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I WITERWEE CANT SAY THAT ON TTCCCC

summer sinew
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I'm gonna get in trouble for laughing again

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😿😿

spark river
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HELP

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heh

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Did I make you giggle

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Or did I make it

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Jiggle

summer sinew
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🙀🙀

spark river
summer sinew
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Can

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I

spark river
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um chat is thos rizz be honest

summer sinew
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Ask

spark river
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HELP WHAT

summer sinew
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A

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Amazing

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Question

spark river
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heh

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You just did

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GOTTEM

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GOTTEEY!

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sorry

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go ahead

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Heh

summer sinew
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My brain is slow rn

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But

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Anyway

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That's my question

spark river
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hm

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Dauh wierwe a guh questuion

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I ur nat shur

summer sinew
spark river
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🥹

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HEP0

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HELP

summer sinew
spark river
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Heh

summer sinew
spark river
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hei heh.. ^_^

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AUFH

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I MISS YOU

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I JUST WANNA LIEK

summer sinew
spark river
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Wait

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Lemme try it out on my girl

summer sinew
spark river
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ok dont love me theb

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HELP NEVER MIND

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ok now the waiting game

summer sinew
spark river
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ok vro went offline

spark river
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Nigrhy

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nighty

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heh

spark river
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GM

spark river
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turns out

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a lot of people find ulises attractive?

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surprisingly

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BUT

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If HE is "attractive"

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theb

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theb

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then

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people probably find andy good lucking too

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🙁

spark river
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OK

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heh

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Im back guys

spark river
summer sinew
spark river
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Heh

spark river
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399 days tg? ^_^

spark river
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yummee

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🍉

spark river
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im tryna grow out my nails

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and I see

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a bit

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of like

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nails growing

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Geh

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Heh

spark river
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Cyrus what are you posting nooo

spark river
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Tried sounding like temprists laugh

granite gull
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I was gonna say then end it

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But that's too far

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I'm not like that

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Okay

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Well

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Watch me jump actually

spark river
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HELPPP

granite gull
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Okay well this group hates me

spark river
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dude they say yes

granite gull
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I can say end it but not my favorite thing in the world💔

granite gull
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The demons

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Oh

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Wait

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Why am I so slow now

spark river
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dud*

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did*

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Help??

spark river
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guys call me healthy

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Ate pizza with lettuce

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😘

spark river
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GOODNIGHT POOPIES I LOVE YPU ALL

spark river
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Yall

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My sister

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Vanessa

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Lowkey tweaking

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Well she was yesterday

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Like last night

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Because Stephanie

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Is like

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In a way forcing her to take her to the gym

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Anwyays

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and Stephanie only goes to the gym to meet up with her bf

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And Vanessa takes her to do so

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But lokwey

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Lowkey

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Stephanie being mean

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Like

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Bc its awkward to be there with someone you know and their bf you dont even know shot about

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So Vanessa was like

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Lowkey asking Stephanie if she can work put with them

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Because

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She doesn't wanna be alone

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And this poo said "no"

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WDYM NO

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LITERALLY VANESSA IS TAKING YOU OUT TO SEE SEBASTIAN

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THE LEAST YOU COULD DO IS BE NICE??

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And Sebastian

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Omg

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He told Stephanie this one time

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He was like

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"Does she have to be here?"

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YES YOU LITTLE LEPRECHAUN

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SHES THE WHOLE REASON YOUR SEEING YOUR GF

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Omg

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dont piss me off nooo nooo nooo

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Anyways

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My papa just left for work

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I rubbed his bald head

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Heh

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For good luck

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matt just went to bed

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🙁

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so that sucks

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im ahead by 3 hours

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saur

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Heh

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Literally mee....

spark river
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I just finished painting my nails

spark river
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NY MOM MADE PANCAKES

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MY

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but I won't eat then

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them*

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because

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my tooth hurts

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so

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I cannot eat them

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or anything in general

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All the lollipops caught up to me..

spark river
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okay

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My sister is crying

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I didnt know

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SO I went inside the room

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Smacked her bum

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I asked her if she was gonna poo

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And

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She like said

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"Stop"

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but not in a mad tone

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More like

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A sad one

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And I realized she was crying

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SO I skedaddled

spark river
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IM DONE SHOWERING

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TIME to change

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pusheen and spooky bob because they remind me of @granite gull @summer sinew

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Heh

granite gull
spark river
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Heh..

granite gull
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My arm is completely numb

spark river
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he fell mama

spark river
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Yeh

summer sinew
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BIG FAT RED GUY

spark river
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Heh

summer sinew
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❗️❗️

spark river
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LMAO

summer sinew
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❤️❤️

spark river
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Heh

spark river
summer sinew
spark river
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Heh

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Eating beans and rice rn

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CALL me healthy..

summer sinew
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Would you wanna share

spark river
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HEY GET DOWN FROM THEREE!

spark river
summer sinew
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I'm hungry💔

spark river
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id feed you like

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a little baby bird getting fed by its momma

summer sinew
spark river
summer sinew
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Teehee

spark river
summer sinew
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Arrghhh

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💔

spark river
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wait is that us or what heh

summer sinew
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Probably

spark river
summer sinew
spark river
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That's literally us

summer sinew
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Yesyes

spark river
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WAIT

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we are so in sync

summer sinew
spark river
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gusy im so happy and excited I might start pulling out my hairs

granite gull
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Woah..!

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I haven't seen the light outside since school ended

spark river
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HELP

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I have seen it multiple times..

spark river
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today was saur cool

spark river
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GOODNIGTHC LOVELYS

spark river
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I JUST HAD

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A DREAM

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OF ANDERSON

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Heh

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Anyways

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okay

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so in my dream

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my sister

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WAS acting up

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Stephanie

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And my dad was too scared to hit her or anything

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But when we got home, cuz we were out when she was acting up

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When we got hom

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Home*

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She ran to my bed

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And like

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my dad followed

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and yeah

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he got onto her bed and began to like

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hit her

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And I ran inside the room

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And I started crying

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A d like

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And

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I called out to vanessa

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And told her that he was lowkey getting Stephanie with too much force

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And she ran inside

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And told me to stay outside of the room

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So I ran off

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and I think I ran away and to school

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Heh

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And during math class

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I think

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Mr chen

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Or Mr Mercado

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Was there

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Helping me with this math problem

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And like

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I was still crying while working on the problem

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Like I was still tearing up

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And I think he saw

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And in my dream it was Mr Chen helping me

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But when I turned around to look up at him because the guy began to comfort me

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I saw Mr Mercado

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so idk

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but yeah

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then

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Mr Mercado began to rub my back

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and then he kissed my cheek, but it was no longer Mr Mercado, he turned into my papa??

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then I forgot the rest of that part

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then

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I was outside in sunset

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And genesis sat next to me on the grass

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And Dylan sat in front of me

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And Isabella behind me

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And I told genesis to stop bothering

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Me

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and she didnt

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so I crashed out on her

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And screamed at her

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And she ddint stop then

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So I began to shift away

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And then I laid down oj my tummy

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And covered myself with a blanket

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One that Isabella gave me irl months ago when we were still friends

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AND I covered myself with it

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AND behind me

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Isabella covered herself too

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And I let her use my blanket

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And

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I was kinda happy

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Then

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I forgot why I got up

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But I got up

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I ran off to some place

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AND then when I started walking back to where I was laying down

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Dylan ran by me and Anderson was walking to the area where basically we were all at

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AND like

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Andy had his backpack

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And his soccer shirt on

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And its funny cuz hes always coming late to school

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Heh

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but yeah

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I glanced at him because he was basically walking next to me

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AND like

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WAIT

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Before I looked at him

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He put his hand on my shoulder

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And I looked at him

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And he asked me how I was doing in the park

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And I didnt answer

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I just grabbed his hand

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And then

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HELP

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HE TOLD ME

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He was like

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you have a period stain

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So I was like

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WHATT

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And he was like yeahh

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and he said there was red

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And when I checked

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I didnt have pants on

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But then shorts magically like

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Appeared on me

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And theb I was like ohh its just like

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my

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My FREAJIN UNDIES

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that are red

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so I told him that

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and showed him the red under my shorts

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And he was like

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oh!

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And then he took me to this store

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And he like

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now holding something in his hands

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and I was just standing there with him as he ordered something in spanish

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and then when he finished ordering

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I looked at him

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And he nervously said something

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im not saying it

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because its embarrassing

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But I was like "ohh I dont know!"

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And then I forgot the rest of my dream

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But I woke up

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Heh

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and I like to think that my dream would come true on day HamsterStare

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just the Anderson part

spark river
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GUESS WHOS GOING TO GO GET WET

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heh

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spark river
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GUESS WHOA BAJX

spark river
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Shwoeringcrn

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guys

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I officially

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lost the war

spark river
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okay guys

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Anderson actually hates me

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And called me all these names

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over

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a glancr

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glance*

summer sinew
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What did that thing say

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❗️❗️

spark river
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im a bitcoin

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And stuff

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and like ouch

summer sinew
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What does that mean..

granite gull
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I'mma doxx him

spark river
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cuz I fw you and your brother

summer sinew
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😿😿

spark river
granite gull
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That fat piggy can't be talking

summer sinew
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OH

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I say bitcoin though to sound less mean

summer sinew
spark river
#

and he said

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Im not good looking

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and stuff like that

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LIKE

granite gull
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No one nobody likes him

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and he said no one wants me

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When Kevin tried dating me

summer sinew
spark river
#

Confessed to me

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Tried to marry me

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Talked about kissing me

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And etc

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And jayden

granite gull
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Asked me to be his gf

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And

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Ulises

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Made me poems

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Made me drawings

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Glazed me

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And etc

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Like damn

summer sinew
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I think it's the other way around

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NO one wnats

spark river
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HELPP

summer sinew
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What's

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WHATEVER HE IS

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He looks like he snuck into earth..

spark river
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GUYS

summer sinew
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⁉️

spark river
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GUYS DO U GUYS WANNA CALL

summer sinew
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Yes ma'amPeepoHeart

spark river
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@granite gull

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WBY

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WBU

granite gull
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Okiiii

spark river
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ok

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yeah

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no

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he hates me

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and

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ig

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its not very cool

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But

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Guess what

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Dylan

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Ulises

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And brandon

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Don't fw him

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so

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lmao

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SUCKS TO SUCK

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At least my friends like me

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i hope

granite gull
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Putting lil baby Dylan in headlock...

summer sinew
spark river
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mwa

summer sinew
spark river
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Heheeh

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#

Guys

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I feel prette happeee

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heh

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Despite literally being heartbroken

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Im still happy

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Surprisingly

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I took this better than I expected

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Because

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I thought id be sobbing and screaming

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But naur

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I wasn't crying over andy and stuff

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I was just pissed heh

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I was mainly mad over the fact he had been calling me this stuff without even knowing me.

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but yeah

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If he doesnt see me the way I see him

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Then theres not much i can do about it

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Except

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Focus on myself

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I think the reason why im not sad at all

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Is because

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I ran to my friends

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And they all were so cool

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And sweet

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And literally were so so so so so supportive

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Like

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I ran to text mel

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And then

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I called jaylah

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And she was watching all this happen in real time

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While I was locked in the bathroom

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Heh

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And like

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Yeah

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Im just really glad my friends were there for me

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And all the funny things they said

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To cheer me up

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Heh

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jaylah

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melly

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jecka

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lingo