#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!
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And forgot
It's so easy
I HATE IT
I love it
It is but I just dont do it at all
Oh and I forgot my password so my shit got locked💀
When do you get out for summer?
It’s gotta be soon right?
Cause June is in a few days
@granite gull do u know when
We have a performance in jine
June
June 16 heh
Wait
I think
Yeah
Yeah we do
No
I checkout on the 10th, chill 11th, 12th, prom the 13th
Yeah
June 20 sumthing
Then I chill until June 18th where I walk the stage
Get my diploma
And then I will have successfully completed 13 years of school
Holy fuck I can hear my dad smacking on his food
Now I wanna leave this place
Screw the cake I wanna get out now😭
LMAO
Yknow what I might not pull up because science is the only thing I wanna go for
WHAT
MEL NOO
I will go tho
I like to do that to annoy my mom heh
Because sadly they gonna get me
W!
I might drop prom pictures and graduation pics in my journal when those events come by
YYAYYYY
heh
You should matt...

oh yeah
im probably gonna try to take more pics on my laptop
And then save them on my phone
To show on my
Journal
Heh
I love her
watch me hit this mid movie.. @granite gull
Why she making that face
And why this song choice bruh😭
jillian
because its silly matt
Joking
😭😭
MEL
back me up.. 🥀
Oh ok vro ig you dont love me mell
WHATEVER
Heh
Guys should I clean my room
For
I made these
For
Ashley
❤️❤️
She hasn't responded to me in hours
OH well

OK
Time to take off my glasses
And let my hair down..
YAY
Guys
Im a little slow
so
ima assume this is a lot of water i just drank
HELLO GUYSSS
And I play restaurant tycoon 3
Gimme
Okay HELLO richness..
SHUT UP YOU SOUND LIKE KEVIN ASKING FOR A DOLLAR STOP
While listening to Lana del ray
ABSOLUTE W
bro
It was 5$ heh I couldn’t pass up cuz they gave me an extra 100 bobux
Don't compare me to that thing
LMFAO
we LOVE that..
Heh

@nimble heron @granite gull @summer sinew GUYS ITS MATTS BIRTHDAY 🎂 🥳
Okay
Hey
Heh
I just finished giving the turtles and fishes
Food
Now
I gotta get ready
^_^
RAH
didn't even go but my outfit literally ate up ... 🥀
red shirt and flare jeans..
RAHHH
vro
I think my sister does this with me
STOP
SHE BUYED ME ICE CREAM AFTER SCHOOL FOR TWO DAYS STRAIGHT BECAUSE IM PRETTY SURE DURING THAT WEEK I THINK I WAS TWEAKING OVER ONE OF MY OLD FRIENDS
okay
guys i had a bad dream today
My dream was
Of my mom getting attacked
By these guys
cuz like
in my dream
I called my mom
And she wasn't picking up
So I called her again during class
And she picked up but the screen was black
and I heard like
grunting in the back
And a bunch of moving
And then the phone almost flips over
And it shows KIMBERLY
And my mom
Getting attacked
By these guys
And before I could actually manage to go to them to help them
I wake up
BECAUSE while I was still dreaming about that
I was lowkey
Tryna wake myself up
Because I was too scared to see them getting attacked, even if it was just a dream
In fact, after I sent this. I went to my mama to cling onto her because I wanted to make sure she was okay 😿
HELP
I JSUT FINSIEHD EATING
Bit the sides and made it into a heart to show my mom
TIME TO TINKLE
mama he a freak.. 💜
Yall
My ex girl friend was everything
I fumbled so badly
I should've just made out with her 🥀
pretty lips 
Holy
TOO LATE MY BABY GYATT IT
HELP
I got 7 of them heh #ZONTPLAUH..

Heh
That was my birthday gift my sister got for me
Even though
My bd was 10 days ago
^_^
SPEAKING OF BIRTHDAY
GUESS WHICH OF MY LITTLE PRECIOUS BEAUTIES TURNED 18 TODAY
GUESS GUYS GUESS
MATTTTTTTT

#lovematt!
My mom wants me to also learn another language
so ima go back to learning German even though i quit 2 years ago heh
heh
Time to put away all my pcs
RAHH

you should draw all of your favorite little characters together heh
Bae
That's so cute
But ima like
Crash out
I lost Andy's paper
What if I jump
Holy shit guys
FUCKKK
Where could I have placed it??? 🙁
Wdym😥
I CANT FIND HIS SHOUTOIT NOTE
IMA JUMP
I LOOKED EVERYWHERE
I definitely threw it away on accident
Omfgg
Grah
guess who's done shwoering
MEEE
Time to go back to cleaning
I look like hamzah with my outfit and glasses on
🙁
WAZZZAHHG
Heh
I wanna listen to Justin Bieber but my sister is sleeping inside the room augh
My teeth hurt so
Bad
WHY DO THEY HAVE TO TIGHTEN BRACES SO DAMN MUVH
IT LITERALLY HURTS
I DONT EVEN WANNA TALK CUZ THEY HURT


Because of you and everybody today
My tummy hurts
I really loved this birthday
Hope you feel better soon Mel
@worldly elk happy birthday matt!! wishing you the best this year and each and every other year. in health, prosperity and wealth
I cant believe i had the balls to actually touch him
To
Give him a high five 
What if I start crying
I cant walk on my left foot
It hurts so much
Around my ankle

ok its already 2
like
12 for him
guys its official he doesn't love me 😔
ive been waiting
like a DOG
for vro
🥀
and guess what
NO TEXT
AT ALL

Ok im gonna spam him isgaf
idgaf
My sister just crashed out over ice cream
now if I want to eat ice cream she bought with my dad's money, I gotta pay her ig
LMAO THATS WHAT IMA DO LATER
And I got a advantage since in the youngest
I'll eat her ice cream and sit on my mom's lap while doing it
Stephanie isn't gonna do shit
😗
Yes
Heh
And then when she saw me eating another ice cream, she was like "Im not saying dont eat my ice cream"
Bruv
HELP

Me too but over a reason like that.. NO. 😕
Because shes buying that ice cream with OUR dad's money that HE gave her to buy things like JUICE or SODA for the THREE OF US
like are we reak
real*
NOW IF YOU WERE SAVING FOR THAT ICE CREAM WITH THE MONEY YOU GET EVERYDAY FOR SCHOOL
Then ok
Valid crashout
But dude


I had ice cream yesterday but I wnat again
Should I take V car or Korilakkuma to the trip
I want both but they're too fat

What if
I just
Took both
And
I'd just have to
Like
Make them fit in the suitcase
V is the one that's fat
The other isn't really
HELP
Wait
LMAO
Oh shes HUGE

Ok
So
Since im a fat, stubborn, petty, bitcoin
I ate all the remaining ice cream
Which wasn't much ngk
But I ate the rest
And to make sure they know I stand on business
I poured a bit of milk in the ice cream container and then drank that shit
Making it fully clean
HELP WHAT
ITS NORMAL MODE BRUV
Heh my house..
time to clean ma room..
miss my girl 🥀
I almost threw up heh
I ate way too much today
So so so much
So unhealthy
Pizza
Donuts
milk
So much milk
gained 2 more pounds
I've never gotten this big
im not eating vro
Tomorrow ima wait to eat
At
12
Maybe 1
water only while I wait 😕
HELP
MY SISTER SAID
"Your normal weight. But if you dont like that then stop being a fatass"
#neededthat..
HELP
SKTP
Oh lowkey true
THE FIRST THING MATT DOES
AFTER I LITERALLY
TWEAKED OUT
OVER MY WEIGHT
IS SHOW ME HIS FOOD

Someone lock me up..
she was like
20
Or 30 more pounds than me
when she was my age

If i dont lose 6 pounds everyone is gonna get it
it was a joke 🥀
guys
oka
now that I really ponder about it
im OK in weight I gues
guess*
I think that i weigh a lot
because
of my bum 😕
or because I got a bit of tummy

Not really
Oh
heh..
Tucked my hair behind my ear and giggled a little
witerwally whatevaa.a...heh... you little flirt.. 🙄
HELLPP
um
can we giggke
i mean
can we gaggle
guys
mel like
for me
is
like
my boyfriend right now 😕
I do everything with her that like
one does with their boyfriend
💔
I'm redoing my huge condom bracelet
HEL WHAT
I want the pearls back
AUGH MEL YOH FREKA
Did you get my reference heh
But lwokey it is true
WAIT I FROGT
Who was it that stole your first kiss
Boy
aigh
It was at the end of the day
that weirdo 😒
It took almost an hour
I thought I liked him for a long time
mwa mwa mwah
I was wrong
HELPP
He said he like me 3rd
WAIT WHEN WAS THIS?
I knew him in 1st grade
He had a crush on every girl
His name was like Jesus or sum

Which I didn't know for a long time
I love Jesus, just not that jesus
I think he was held or sum
looked almost sorta Asian cuz of his cheeks covering his eyes
MEXICAN?
Yeah
I think
I remember telling my friend in 2nd grade I "liked" a girl and she said ew that's gross

Wait
This is bringing back memories
My 2nd kiss was Jizelle ofc
Damn
AUGH
THAT
THAT BITCOIN
😠
And if it wasn't kevin
And if it was a girl
you already know
probably
HELP
id say no one
HELP
but probably it would be the first girl I got freaky with and got my first lesbian allegations with, which was Isabella 🥀
Kevin or isa
if i had the choice to pick a guy or a girl
You shoulda went for it
HELP
THIS ISNT HELPING THESE ALLEGATIONS
I remember when I got married to her during gym in front of 2 classes

Oh yeah I remember during prime last year
Konnie caught Jizelle grinding on me
He said ayooo
AUGH KONNIE
I would've pulled my dih out and hit him with it
He even saw her trynna give me another smooch
I found it very funny
I remember when I said smth too freaky about that little gummy thingy on the led pencils and jaydon and konnie laughed 🥀
Of what
OH MY GOD
I had too many
I was NOT gonna go to gym
I STARTED TEARING UP
I even had the urg to tell ms Singh to just let me stay
Cause I did not remember what class we had next
She just stared at me confused💔
She had to go through her classes because she had no idea why I was there
OMG MS PEAK DID THAT TO ME
WHEN I WAS SHAKIMG HER HAND
SHE JUST LOOKED AT ME
AND WAS LIKE
"What are you doing?..."
HELP
I SHIT MYSELF
Then my mom said "oh we are going home!!"
And ms peak was like "OHH"
MAMA WHAT?
Ms peak so silly
Hold on matt is texting me heh
Okiii
You heard me
I will not back down or surrender on this issue
BAD MATT
Don’t care + ur mad
Care about another woman’s child??
A child that I’m forced to babysit?
heh
lowkey
OK
my girls are gonna get me for this
but now that I really think about it
Kevin was supposed to be my boyfriend
AND
my first kiss
😒
we pretended to be married
#exposedmyself
WE WERE SUCH FREAKSTERS TOGETHER
he was so sweet and stupiiddd
AND HE WAS SO LIKE
SO
likee
SO SWEET AROUND ME
He was so sensitive around me
🥀
EVEN AFTET I SKEDADDLED
HE ADMITTED HE WAS STILL LOWKEY
LIKE
SENSITIVE
AROUND ME
Because
I see this like
shockinf
because
After I left
He still talked about mr
Me
But after a while
he began saying he doesn't CARRE and etc
but then when I came back
like
in a way
he had his little like
moments where he would get all sensitive with me
like vro I thought you said you didnt careeuh
but i also feel bad
because
we lowkey loved each other so much
That after we stopped being friends
we were all that we'd talk about
If that makes sense
Id talk about him, he'd talk about me
sadly
he made the mistake of tweaking over me to a girl that was in love with him I think
so
she made a sad tiktok about him
and referred to me as "E"

Well I THINK I was E because thats basically what Kevin told me
And I just ran to my girls
And tweaked over them
Thankfully they put up with me
Heh
But yeah
im not in love with kevin
I just still think about what we could've been
if I had just stayed in the first place
But I DIDNT
out of jealousy
Which sucks
because
he never really did anything wrong
I was just jealous
And upset
he didnt do anything wrong
🥀
we should've been smth 
😭
BRO
craziest part us
is
He had this discord acc
But he lowkey abandoned it
tell me why
the name and pfp is changed now
so your telling me he never really did leave it??
IN FACT HE STILL HAS DISCORD??
Ima jump

well ellie
i recognized the part where he said he didnt care
i believe that to be a mechanism of him just trying to ignore his feelings
i found myself doing that at times too despite in my chest i wanted to say i wanted it
btw im officially a lana del rey fan

u got any plans tonight el?
or today
i forgot its morning there

actually wait its like almost 11 so afternoon
heh, he says he doesnt care but my friend told me he was asking about me, found my Instagram account and even follows me around sometimes
see
Heh not really
doin the opposite of the words
ITS 10:47 RIGHT NEOOWWW
Exactly
as always actions speak louder than words, but its in your best choice to not misinterperet those actions
but like im a little confused vro
pretty sure he had a gf but hes still watching me 
oh well-
thats a big wrong on his side
it is
doin his gf real wrong
night time not good
OH!
WHQT
WHAT
LUCKY
I witerwally need your auntie right neow..
I remember my dad made my family sushi once heh
I didnt estcit
eat it*
When he came to America, his first job was at a fancy Chinese restaurant
RAH
wait lemme go tinkle
Okeyyy go tinkle
Never tried it heh
OH!
I wanna but id probably only eat the rice since im lowkey a picky bitcoin


What’re u having el
HEY
heh
isn't it pass your bedtime ling..
But
I had
one bagel
AND
coffee

Good morning❗️❗️

Ims jump
IJ MY OGD
Yall already KNOW ima pull up to see her
RAHHH
IM SO HAPPY
She's so pretty
🙄
Gotta know if shes taken yet..
Heh
sob
OH
THAT IS GRAET
LIKE I AM LOWKEY PULLING MY CRUSH BUT HOW THE HELL DO I CONTINUE
WHATTT
but like actually idfk what to do
the whole story or?
Lemme try to help TRUST!
IF YOU WANTTT
okay so lets firstly just the recent things
oh yeah idfk how it started
AWH
OH
idk
oh
does he know that you like his ex 
i guess
OH!
holdddd
oh?
🙊
idk how this'll go
same
"do you like me"
"idk"
"yes or no"
"well what if i said yes and then went away for like 2 minutes alright?"
yes
