#ELLIES LITTLE JOURNAL !!!!!!!!!!!!
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Bye bye
bye

no, "BYYYEEEE I LOVEEE YOUUU!"?
Nope!
okay
π
Bye.
walks away
Tears well up in my eyes
βDontβ i yank my hand away
π
Baby please. I grab your arm
HELP
OKAY
BUE
BYE
I LOVE YOU
π©·
Yuh
I use to call her babadook
HELP
For some readom
π
No
No
uguh
guys
Caught myself thinking about stealing my daddy's cologne π
ok
HELP
I CURSED
GUESS WHOS DONE SHOWERRING
HEYYY
do people really like my journal?
wiat
AWH
WAIT
GUYS
THATS SO LIKE
COOL
heh
HELP
#loveyouall
NEEEE
@granite gull should I look at some of my witerwally BEST friends journals
The people that hit that little subscribe button on my journal
GUESS WHAT
IM GONNA
um
im gonnaaa
HELP
I FORGOT TO TEXT UT
Hmmm
I wanna
playeobldo
@granite gull
do you wanna...?
or did you fall asleep
um
Anwyas
since
She doesn't even love me
Hmmm
Hmm
What to talk aboutt
I need to rant about smth
Hm.
kmay
olay
HELP
okay
YIPEEE
Me anddd @granite gull
okay
boy talk
HELP
boy talk is my topic
okay
so
throughout my school years, I've always wanted TRUE love
OH ueha
true love
is my topic
HELP
okay
sk
so
I've always wanted a partner yk
I always wanted to have a partner that would treat me nicely. I wanted to always be held and cared for! Ive always dreamt of finding my other half! And I continue to do so, im young, and I have my whole life ahead of me! And I know I shouldn't spend it falling in love and then falling out of love constantly.
I feel like I'm a clingy person
and i am!
and it's not good
Sure, some people might find it cute
and some might even think being clingy towards other people is great!
Well, maybe it seems like that on the outside
And it feels nice to be clingy towards someone sometimes. Especially when they let you just cling onto them, and be yourself!
But it's not so great in general
is get attached
Easily!
After a week of texting, im probably already attached
Definitely attached
Especially if they are silly with me, or very sweet to me
There are many examples of people I've gotten too attached to
And then i got hurt at the end
Well
Either I got hurt, or the other person got hirt
hurt*
which is the worst part π
I get jealous too easily, I'm very sensitive, and I never let go of things
For example
Someone can be talking to me and then if I see them put a "." at the end of their sentence, I'll IMMEDIATELY think something went wrong
because i feel like people never put that at the end of their sentence, and if they do, it feels like they are just being dry
Maybe even mean
I know some people just use it out of habit, but in my past experiences, I've learned people mainly use it to express their annoyance or their frustration
And it makes me over think
And like I mentioned, im sensitive
I'm also very emotional
And I don't mean emotional by always crying, yes, I cry most of the time.. but i also mean that I'm always too hyper sometimes!
or sometimes i crash out
but anwyas
all of these traits or whatever you wanna call them..
are the reason I won't date
I've said it once
I've said it twice
I've said it multiple times
But I'll say it again!
I'm scared of dating
And you know what? It's not just because I'm scared of getting hurt or hurting my partner
It's because I'm scared of getting forced into something I don't want
Out of most of the boys I've talked to, or guy friends, they always talk about looks
or bodies
and sure! Obviously you'd like to date someone beautiful! But looks isn't everything you should pay attention to
Personality, intentions, blah blah blah, stuff like thatt!
and to be honest, I think that's pretty important
I mean
Would you date someone who's BEAUTIFUL, but treats you like dirt?
Constantly controlling you, making mean jokes, making rude comments on you or people you love, or abusive?
It's crazy to think some people would genuinely even go through all of that just because they want a good looking partner
I think it's not very cool
Im young
And in stupid
But I'm not that stupid
I notice when people lose interest in me
When people move on
When they seem annoyed
When they seem sad
I notice it!
But I don't mention it
If someone is dry to me, yes, I'll get a bit frustrated, but I won't immediately call them out and get mad and block them
Id just continue texting them until they stop texting me
something I usually do when I notice people stop texting me, or losing interest, is that I just go dry too
I'll be silly if you are silly
I'll be serious if you are serious
I'll be dry if YOU are dry
But you know i really love you if I'm still silly even if you are dry π
like
If I stop showing interest, it's not that I don't like you, it's because i won't force something on you that you don't seem to want
I could be quick to be silly
And I can be quick to drop it too
π
Im no nonchalant guy though
I'll act it
But in reality, im not
I can act so mean, I could be such a disgusting, and mean person to someone
but in reality!
I don't mean it
in fact
ill cry out of guilt
i hate being mean
and I hate the effects my actions have on people because of it
I keep getting lost
anwyays
I think its pretty obvious I'm not
but I'll act it
let me look for examples
this isn't a example of this specifically
this is more of a example of
me being a insecure poop
am I losing aura from this
prob
Well it's fine
Who needs nonchalant anyways
Being honest is cooler
Being honest is cooler
#switched
I hope not
Was he that bad?
he was the best and the worst
probably
either way, we were never a thing so I don't really care much
I saw you online
@granite gull
don't play
okay man
anwyad
im getting all sad again
this isn't cool
Time to be silly because not texting in caps makes my stomach sick
I GYATTA TAKE CARE OF PEACHY
π
I keep forgetting about her
AND THIS ISNT VERY CUTE
SAVE HER
YYAYAYA
Hey maybe she's busy or can't talk rn
keep a bottle around throughout the day
Super cool
she might be asleep π
She's just like me fr π
I hope she wakes up..
Oh
Hey tic, I just woke up then came to check in and saw this. I want to remind you that wanting love and yearning for love is completely normal. It is a psychological thing, youβre 13 and youβre maturing as a teenager. Wanting to find a partner who will treat you right is natural. I had those feelings when I was 12 π
What happened to Mel?
Even though it's normal, it feels weird because everyone around me already has PARTNERS.. and I'm the only one crashing out about this atp
She always falls asleep on me when i need her the most..
Donβt be impatient tic
growing individually is a good thing
It will come
You alright tic?
π
not really! But I just need a good giggle π
My friend sent me a picture of her dog..
its so cool..
Nana
I kinda
maybe
Took my cousins gum on accident
I thought it was my SISTERS GUM
my other sister took like 5 pieces
HELPP
Repay the gum back π
HE DOESNT EVEN KNOW WE HAVE IT π
Then keep quiet 
My dog murdered a cockroach
GUYS WHAT π π
WE WILL π
my bird attacked one once
She saved us
π₯Ί
ONWS?
ONES***
Aww.. Rip bird
Yes π
Take your time
I was the cause of her death..
π
OKAYAYAAY
What happened?
I left the cage door opened and she jumped out onto the floor and I kindaaa
stepped on her
I DIDNT NOTICE HER
I swear
IM GINNA GET MY SISTER TO SEND ME PICS OF HER
YAYA
I LOVE YOU
I MISSED YOU
Bro i just woke up and my leg cramped so hard im genuinely crying
I cant stand on it
OH MY GOD
Like J was stabbed in it
Bri I screamed so loud in my pillow
Overall I needa stop stretching
Imma give you a nice hug

I need tha
kisses you on forehead while I pat your back
alright brah cmere



:3
///β’_β’///
WAAAAAAH
π

They hate you
YOPEPE
Was she small the dog π§ββοΈ
Cute birb π
Stretching causes cramps?
yeahh π
I got dogs too
Me neither m..
YOU CAN SEND THEM IN PHOTOGRAPHY
π
LIKE WHEN YOU TOLD ME ABOUT MINION AND GOOF
You can't send any pictures yet unless you have been in the server for a week or more I think!
YesβΉοΈ
OH
YUH
Whaaaat
I thought itβs mostly from lack of hydrated and not enough minerals?
Idk maybe
Aw Iβll have to wait then
Ive been in misery for an hour
π
Call tic to come massage ur leg
IF YOU GUYS WANT YOU CAN SEND ME THE OICTURES AND I CAN SEND THEM FOR YOU GUHS AND ILL TAG YOU GUYS TOK

πΌ π
π
I made a lot of spelling mistakes
Itβs ok tic thank u for the kind gesture
YESSS YOU ARE MEGA WELCOME
HELP
NOT MALE
LMAOAOA
I got food!!!
Ofc you do..
KITTTTTTYYYY
KITTTYUH
AWWW
That cat is pretty WTH
okay time to go console a little guy
LITERALLY MAJESTIC
Hes 8 turning 9!!!!
In human years heβs an uncle
A UNC..
Squish it
He bites meπ
I have a bad obsession with small cats
What he doing


HAIII
HES PONDERING
He's rubbing his tiny chin
HELP
AWH
Yall
I was chewing gum
And my dad gave me candy
So I ran to my sister to give her the candy
And she said no
Cuz she can't eat sugar cuz of her man
So
Yk what i did
GUESS GUESS GUESS
I made her stick out her hand
And I let my gum fall into her hand
HELP
Alright guhs
GUHS
I mean this
Genesis....
I 100% mean this
Genesis...
Anyone can text in my journal and be silly with me, I witerwally love it
War flash backs
She gave me nightmares with the gum
STOPPP
LMAOOO
HELPPPP
My eyes closed and tears spilled out
HELP
A little drool too
Genesis hitting me..
Iβm eating 
Me tooo!!!!
HWAT ARE YOU GUYD EATINGGG
Howβs your food melody
Idk what u call it in English π

I was eating rice π
I love rice..
With cheese
What
And steak
Alright you lost me at the cheese part
Same
Yeah like the cheese is melted in the rice
LMAO
Why not try buttered rice
Just smack butter on the rice cooker
I don't have a rice cooker
ME NEITHER


We have a tortilla maker
I know Iβm not supposed to be shook but I am
HELP
π
MEXICO?
WAIT
DONT CANCEL ME GUYS
YES!
Same
MY MOMMT DOES IT ON A BIG POT
#latina
HELP
Is that the rice
LMAO
Yup!!!
Nooo Iβm not 
Traditionally we also cooked rice in pots
But now itβs just normal to have a rice cooker here
U can make cakes in it too
WHAT
WOOOW
Yes
That's crazh
I'm not a fan of cake ngl
I only eat like one type
I LIKE THE MOIST BOTTOM OF THE CAKE
FR
I like cake but I take 2 bites and stop
Tres leches hello?
nah I
ME TOO, IM LIKE THAT WITH MOSTS CAKES
yes
I
Mel was tweaking out
I broke my wooden chopsticks for my food

I SAWWW
Real
WHQT π
WE ALL SAW YOU MEL
you said you studied.
SHE DIDNT EVEN PAY ATTENTION
I was so proud in that miment
I would've gotten zero correct if it wasn't for alex..
I tried π
Barely..
Good job tho 
Dont lie
Alex the savior
FRRR
IM NOT LYING
YESSSS
YES YOU ARE!????
I almost leaned in and
DUDE NO IM NOTT
MY PANTS ARENT ON FIRE BRAH!
YOURS ARE
LING
I WAS LISTENING
Back me up here
π‘π‘π‘π‘
π
Don't Ling
IT LOOKS LIKE YOU WERENT
DONT LISTEN TO HER LING
I WAS LISTENEDING FOR ANSWERS MR FATGARD SCARES ME
HELPPP
π
I almost peed myself
STOPPP
I felt it dripping down
LMAOOO
I DONT KNOW WHATS HAPPENING
It was already puddling
Why does ur tc sound so scary lol
JUST SAY "MEL WASNT PAYING ATTENTION IN CLASS"
because he IS
NO???
I WAS STRESSING I WA PAYING ATTENTION
LING BACK ME UP HERE
He's nice when it's not work
I WAS TOO BUSY STARINF AT ANDY
Ok tic
YEHA
π
Mel you didnβt pay attention
W LING
...
W
( idk if mel did or not )
L for Ling
goodjob..
SHE DIDNT
Iβm struggling here using one full chopstick with a half chopstick
M for mad
π‘
Bless your soul π
No
Jump
π‘
Alright
I'mma get mr FATGARD to get you
THIS IS OGNNA BE ME
Keep running
SHUT UP
hits a lil jig
AUFH
π
Woulda cried with him
Rock him like a baby
where is little ling....
....
Toodles!!!
Still struggling with the chopsticks
Linngg!
HELP
#freeling
Iβm done eating
@granite gull
was it good..
Thank you melody, Iβve never felt so touched
No problem 

Isnβt it night time for u guys there
YUP
Guys don't take this seriously π
I don't got a sleeping time!!!

HELP
Inconsistent sleep?
We know...

No
Dylan in gym
No wonder u sleep in class
LMAOOO
Pure habit
Ling got you with that one
Always feel asleep even before that
Guys you've been doing it since like 5th
School is just very boringπ
DONT PLAY
It is when there's classes
Ive been like this since 1st
HELP
Lunch is the only good period
Haha
WHO TOLD YOU TO FALL ASLEEP??
I used to draw a lot when I was in 8-9 grade
Not even drawing saves me π
Youβre doomed mel
NOOOO
Ofc
No
π
LALAAL WE CANT HEAR YOU
Genesis all talk tbh
HELP?
Lover her
She pees her pants everytime
As if I was gonna stop her
NO FRRR
Our friend Genesis, says the most random stuff to seem big and bad π
ESPECIALLY ANDRES
π
I genuinely start tearing up
Blindon makes me tear up
Anthony just stands there and looks majestic
Real

OKAY IM BACK
I'm gonna disappear due to my dad catching me awake
I GOT TO BED UNTIL
Like
11:45 maybe
If I get lucky then until 12
You still got like more than hour if itβs 11:45
AAHHHH
Woah that charging speed is fast, whatβre u using tic?
charger...
INSANE
NO YOUR PHONE
What phone accepts charges that fast 
BUT ITS A FAST CHARGER
π π€·ββοΈ
I'm cleaningπ
She died
Okay yk what thatβs very good keep going
You clean too tic.
Listening to music!!!
HAHA
No
HELPP
YES
Iβm a guy but I do more cleaning than my lil sis
I DO A LOT OF CLEANING WHEN IM HOME ALONE
musik
YUP!!!!
thats very good tic
THANK YOU GUSY
shes very CUTE!
ULISES BETTER STOP TEXTING ME
guys
I missss
i miss
π
I misssss
I miss jujupoo
I miss @wooden sable
No you dont
NOPE!!
ITS ABOUT ME, YOU, AND GENSIS
Wgat
Ooo
OMG
SOME DUDE IN DEWEY IS SPREADING RUMORS THAT GENESIS IS DATING MANY GUHS
GUYS*
I GOTTA TELL GEEENNESIS
YOU GYATTA
WHAT??
Damn
Mmhmm
Rip Genesis
She LIKES guys from Dewey but she ain't date them
HE SAID ITS A GUY THAT SHES HAD BEEF WITH IN THE PASY
PAST*
STOPPP. NOOOO
WHAT
YESSS
Why
Because
I LOVE RHAT
GoGurt
THAT

ESPECIALLY THE CRUNCHY ONES
HEYYYY LING IS HERE
Yeah when they get frozen some are crunchy and then others are just plain frozen with no crunch with just softness
HEYY
Soft please
L
YAYAAYAY
LOLZ (Laugh Out Loud Zebras)
SHUT UP
Are you doing karate exercises or something 
nvm i cant find the ss
NO π
Some of my skin lifted a bit from it
π
What-
I don't know how to describe itπ
As long as itβs not bleeding tic-

YAYYY GUYS
Sent that 10 days ago but i like to belive he still means it
he better
YES!
You should get the Tiffany cut
Ling is the best
SHUR UP
Iβm feeling this impending doom because I got a math test coming up


