mossy lynx
I just want you to know that you’re not alone in this. I’ve felt that emptiness too—not being able to feel excitement, happiness, or even sadness when I know I should. It’s such a strange and isolating feeling, like watching life happen through a window instead of actually living it. And I know how frustrating it is to want to feel something again but not knowing how.
What you’re going through makes sense, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. Sometimes, when we go through big losses—losing someone we love, losing stability, even losing parts of ourselves—our minds try to protect us by numbing everything out. It’s not that you don’t care, and it’s not that you’re broken. You’ve been carrying a lot, and sometimes, our emotions just go quiet when we’re overwhelmed.
I don’t know the perfect answer, but I do know this: You will feel again. Maybe not all at once, maybe not today, but the fact that you want to feel again means there’s still something inside you that’s reaching for life. Be patient with yourself, and in the meantime, know that even in this numbness, you still matter. You’re not alone in this.