Iv been suffering with mental problems since i was 12-13. It was mid covid and iv been suffering with hypochondria and it was very tiring. I had for almost 4 years till 2023. I escaped the cycle of hypochondria and i thought that i can live normally again. I was doing okay for the whole year of 2023 and half of the year 2024. But since like August of 2024 iv been feeling a bit down. Iv noticed that I snap out mid skl and I cant focus for shit. But I said to my self that it doesnt matter. But in Dcemeber iv had this masive attack but ion even know what caused it. I got DPDR and Existential Thoughts out of it. Later on in January of 2025 Iv gained harm OCD and my DPDR and Existencial thoughts got even more intense.... Ion even know whats real anymore. Am I going crazy? Is there any way out of it.
#I think im loosing it
thick belfry
kindred sand
heyy
do you know what the reason you had harm OCD, is it trauma or something that happened in your life that caused maybe anxiety or panic attacks?
thick belfry
do you know what the reason you had harm OCD, is it trauma or something that hap...
I have no idea. I was coming from skl one day and I started to feel little bit unreal, like if i wasnt even on the same earth as everbdy else. As I arrived home i sat down and started thinking more abt the reality its self. That was the trigger for DPDR atleast i think. But the harm OCD and existencial OCD just came with it. Cause iv had the thoughts for two weeks just cycling in my head and the harm thoughts came and the existencial thoughts got even more intense. Iv been suffering since that day 24/7 and i just want to break free again...
thick belfry
I don't feel real, I feel like I'm just watching everything around me from behind the glass or like I'm watching someone playing a game. I also don't feel any emotional connection between me and reality, as if everyone around me is not alive at all, but they were some soulless "objects". But I'm aware of all this deep in my brain, I just don't know how to make my brain feel it physically.
kindred sand
i see
for it there is not solution than to try to understand that why i need to see it that way i got a chance to experience life and we all know that we are just souls so its not a secret
if you are feeling that you cant get rid of it
i suggest behavioral therapy or psychodynamic therapy
thick belfry
I would like to try therapy or just appoint a therapist or psychologist, but I'm afraid that they will somehow misunderstand me and give me a completely different diagnosis instead of the one that is actually the one I have.
kindred sand
whats the diagnosis that you have
for your case i dont think you risk hospital or something
you just need some meds or maybe vitamins
and some talking about life
thick belfry
so u think there is hope? Cause iv been thinking abt this shit way to much and i thought ima go crazy or smth cause these thoughts are wild smtimes
kindred sand
arent we all crazy in our way?
ofc there is hope it was never hopeless for you
its just a waking up that happens to many
your case is easy to heal
seek therapy and everything will be good trust me
thick belfry
alr bro ty! ill update u if u even care
kindred sand
alr bro ty! ill update u if u even care
ofc i care you know where to find me
hope i helped
