Journal but Discord version. Mostly to just rant about stuff or something.
#Tommy's Journal
hollow vapor
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hollow vapor
Thursday, 13 February 2025
I'm worried about working on this animation project. I've basically got gotta this 4 minute long project done in like 29 days. I'm trying to manage my schedule so I know when to work and when to take breaks.
hollow vapor
Sunday, 2 March 2025
God, I have never been so fcking pissed on my life.
Big whole roleplay event I set up and multiple people were interested? Nah, nobody cares now.
Someone goes into VC and draws men kissing? Oh yeah, now there's 7 whole people watching it! Everybody cares about that! We totally have the time to be doing anything right now, but no, let's watch a dude draw men kissing!
It's fcking stupid.
I spent weeks building this crap up, got multiple people interested, and in the end, they don't give a sh!t when I actually go through with it. No, something else is apparently more interesting to them, and they can't even take a little time out of their day to do that.
It fcking p!sses me off.
I did all this for nothing.
I just want to fcking tear the flesh off my own face out of pure rage.
hollow vapor
Tommy's Journal
Monday, 17 March 2025
Well great, I've broken my one month streak just because some people couldn't learn on how to drop a fcking topic.
I posted a YT ad with the intention of making fun of how inappropriate it was, but apparently it was too inappropriate so I deleted it.
But people kept going ON AND ON "what was it" "send it to me"
I basically fcking snapped and yelled at them to just drop it and that I was an idiot, cuz apparently my mental health was teetering off a cliff for some reason at 12 in the morning.
I said I was taking a break from the server for a week and that "everyone hated me" and that i hoped they were happy. If it was obvious I had a meltdown over this, it was pretty obvious now.
I haven't had a breakdown in a whole MONTH. And now the damn streak is broken because people couldn't shut their mouths.
hollow vapor
Friday, 21th March 2025
Ah welp, Blackgryp0n apparently got exposed being weird to a kid.
It sucks since I really loved the character Barnaby in Billie Bust Up.
I think you can pretty much still like a fictional character while hating the voice actor.
I'm surprised Saberspark defended him of all people, Jesus.
Just no end to this damn war of people getting exposed left and right.
hollow vapor
Saturday, 29th March 2025
So as if college wasn't making life any more harder for me, they've now put the final project deadline on the same day I was supposed to take an English exam.
But I CAN'T EVEN DO the English exam because me and my parents are going abroad for a week, and since we wanted a villa we had to go before half terms because apparently the prices skyrocket by then.
So now I have to figure out some sort of compromise.
I have to wait until November to be able to take a damn resit and then I'll probably have to get the FP done earlier.
hollow vapor
Monday, 31st March 2025
I guess this is more of a positive thing today.
My mum realised just how stressed I was about missing this stuff in college, so she ended up changing the date of the holiday to a more earlier date, therefore I would get a chance to participate in the English exam and submit the FP on the deadline.
hollow vapor
Tuesday, 1st March 2025
Okay I guess my mum is going right back to being a stubborn b*tch again!
I'm coughing my damn guts up in the morning, what does she do?
Does she ask me if I'm alright?
Would she be concerned?
No,
SHE PRACTICALLY DOESN'T EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE ME AND IGNORES ME.
IF SHE'S STILL PISSED AT THE FACT THAT I WENT INTO SENSORY OVERLOAD AT THAT RESTAURANT 2 DAYS AGO I'M ACTUALLY GOING TO PUNCH HER.
hollow vapor
Friday, 4th April 2025
Oh boy sht went down in a rp server I like. almost 3 times.
i'm just gonna copy paste this whole story thing:
the dude who caused the ocs to break up i'll just call "R"
the dude who had the oc in the relationship i'll call "M"
so
from the top
M and R's ocs were in a relationship, with M's oc being slightly suggestive in terms of personality
so for some reason, I guess R just snapped one day and said that M's oc was cheating and wanted to break them up
and R acted like a complete a-hole about it because he had apparently had enough with M's oc acting suggestive, and then to further add fuel to the fire, he accused one of M's ocs of being a bad german person when they were just german
and this was after M had left the server saying that could've just "fckin told them" if the oc's relationship was bothering them
and then EVEN MORE SHT happened
i'll call this dude "G", and one of the mods "Y"
G wanted Y to inform the owner what had just happened, but Y just suggested they all calm down
G then insisted they tell the owner because they're basically letting R get away with their behaviour
and then Y just shut down the convo
and then
you guessed it
more sht happened
i'll call this dude "Z"
Z and G don't get along very well
so after Y shut down the convo, G was pssed and said that he was actually being an a-hole and not accepting his advice
after this whole thing had blown over in like, a couple minutes, Z then came in and said that G was acting like a dck, basically almost restarting the fire before it got quelled down again
so now Z has gone to a complaints channel to complain about G acting like an a-hole and saying he's a dck
and thats where its at right now
hoo boy.
hollow vapor
and yeah, another argument had broken out from what Z said
what a surprise
mod was pinged and just told them to calm down cuz
im guessing everybody was just fed up with the crap going on
im basically acting as the fcking
zen master trying to keep everyone calm
messaged M to make sure he was okay and said it was alr if he wanted to take a break
so i am
praying to GOD
that its all finally calmed down
hollow vapor
Tuesday, 8th April 2025
God this sht is pssing me off.
I make an inappropriate joke because I'm just used to having dark humour, everyone's disturbed by it.
Someone else makes an inappropriate joke, OH HAHA FUNII!!!
I'm not a fcking equal and I never will be.
hollow vapor
Wednesday, 16th April 2025
Well great I relapsed again.
Just because I can't be good enough for those around me.
I'm not like that certain someone who the whole servers favours; outgoing, engages a lot with people. I can't do that.
I can't live up to what people expect of me and I hate myself for that.
hollow vapor
Sunday, 20th April 2025
It's seriously fckin stupid when people in Roblox randomly have grudges against me when I'm doing absolutely nothing to them.
Like, first it was me being targetted over the fact I was playing a stunner character and stunned the enemy about twice, and that apparently pissed him off or smth.
But now, I get insulted in Dandy's World from an exploiting Boxten just because I'm playing Bassie.
Like jesus Christ, what did I ever do to you?
hollow vapor
Friday, 16th May 2025
Can't believe my mum threw the worst insult at me.
My parents had received a voicemail from my tutor asking where I was despite the fact I told him I would be on holiday, but I guess he forgot.
And then my parents were asking why I didn't tell them that I got a message off him and why I didn't respond.
And then my mum
in the most nonchalant tone said:
"He's too busy sitting there crying".
Which was talking about the times I would sit in class and cry to myself because I was overwhelmed and stressed
and the fact I was unknowingly OD'ing on my medication which made my mood x10 worse.
Literally had to leave and go upstairs before I broke down in tears.
hollow vapor
Wednesday, 28th May 2025
it gets annoying at the fact that I'm doing a RP event with others, and then someone else pops and they're all now focused on that, while I'm stuck waiting for a reply for hours (fyi I hate pinging people for RP responses)
and it eats me up constantly and makes me doubt myself in how good I can write every single time
hollow vapor
Sunday, 8th June 2025
Apparently, some teenagers last night randomly decided to smear a donut over my dad's car.
I had heard kids being outside at like, 10:30 in the night, which I thought was pretty odd, as usually the only kids I've seen are kids like 10 and above, not teenagers.
I did tell my parents about this (I was home alone when they were at a concert) and they mostly became concerned since I told them they had knocked on the door. Twice.
So now my parents are looking into getting security cameras, but they're telling me not to worry about it since it was probably a one time occurrence.
hollow vapor
Sunday, 15th June 2025
Can't play Catalog Avatar Editor in peace sometimes, I swear.
I ended up in a Spanish or Italian server so I didn't really pay much attention to the chat.
And then I saw that my name got mentioned.
And then it was just my name with a plus sign next to other people's name, so I don't know if this was a shipping thing.
But then they just went overboard.
They put my name, some other guy and then bloody eggplant and water emojis after the equal sign.
And I instantly felt sick.
After a while they left, and then I did as well.
But Jesus Christ, the hell is wrong with people sometimes.
Keep in mind I literally did nothing. They just started talking about me out of the blue and it escalated into...that.