Okay so I can't add a ducking gif??
#Haha mommy issues but also not so haha
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Okay lemme retype cause what the heck
okay but I don't wanna
typing this again cause why in the hell are gifs not allowed?? Anyways I'm black and trans and my family are raging homophobes and transphobic. My mom is kinda the worst of all of them. And if you're American, you've seen the news and all and the direction our country is going, and it's caused me to often spend nights crying myself to sleep cause of how overwhelming I'm feeling. And I can't even vent my problems to my mom cause she'd probably kick me out or worse(cause I'm trans). And the thing is that I'm very much a mommy's boy and I've loved my mom ever since I've stepped foot on this earth and it hurts when I can't even tell my mom how it feels when I know she's not gonna like it. I ache for her hugs at night, and I often make scenarios of her becoming non hemophobic and transphobic to cope with the fact that she'll hate me if I tell her. It's caused me to even feel suicidal and idk what to do.
It's legit causing me to spiral and I can't even do anything other than just try and live I guess and the amount of despair I feel is soul crushing