i am hopeless.

[rotund valve]

ok i dont think anyone is going to reply or even read this bc i checked the other comments and i saw that they're being ignored so i wont go too in depth until someone replies.

so i had an essay to do for a subject bc i signed up for a competition and i thought it would be a cool experience (it wasnt.) i had only two days to do it and saturday and sunday are my only free days of the week. no one ever taught me how to make essays and i knew that this would all end in misery, panic attacks, breakdowns etc. so yh basically i wasted my last free day just thinking about it and feeling guilt and i couldnt do anything else other than that. now i have 5 more days of school, which is agony. i cant take all that time back. i made a promise to myself to stop pancking in these situations, and i know that i shouldnt, but i already knew that it was going to happen. i really need advice on how to stop reliving these situations over and over, because i know its going to happen again. im alone

[devout creek]

I’ve been in these certain situations sometimes whenever faced in school. It’s completely okay to feel like this whenever you feel under pressured. My advice is that you should try your best writing the essay and if you didn’t win the competition, that’s okay.

Let’s take deadlines, for example, something I also struggle with as well. You can reach out to one of your teachers about your difficulties, they will likely understand and might extend your deadline or offer partial credit for your work. It's important to create an organized schedule and plan ahead before the deadline approaches. Most importantly, make sure to get some good sleep!

[rotund valve]

i used chat gpt in the end and probably everyone else did but i still feel guilty about it. my teacher is not going to understand my personal problems, they're not my therapists. the thing is i cant even "try my best" i literally cannot write ANYTHING. yes i know, shocking. only i cant, which makes me feel guilty bc its something literally everyone can do but i cant.

i literally cant make essays

i have no idea how

no one ever taught me how

look

i feel really bad rn

i wasted my whole day with just this feeling of guilt

[rotund valve]

no one else wastes their time with just feelings but me

i have autism so i panic really often even if its the smallest thing in the world

i really struggle with keeping calm in situation

i started my year with another panic attack

when i promised myself that this year im going to try to remain calm in every situatin no matter what

and now i wasted this last day

i have 9 hours of school a day

and school really breaks me apart

no one understands me

i just really want someone to understand

im literally crying

again

i want to stop harming myself like this all the time

i am hopeless.