There’s so much on my plate

[mossy basin]

I’ll get straight to the point, I’m lonely.

• Me and my boyfriend have been together for two years, I’ve been in the best happy relationship I ever have been in.
• He didn’t have motivation with what he wanted to do in life, and I finally got to push him to do something and he’s now making a series and it’s successful so far!!
• But with this work in process series he’s making. We haven’t been talking much and I guess I’m so dependent and clingy on him that I miss him.

• I don’t really have friends, maybe a little chat every now and then but I wish I had some people to talk to throughout the day instead of chronically being online waiting for a notification only for it to be an email by Temu.
• I play games and watch videos but even then it doesn’t help my boredom. Nothing against my boyfriend I love him and we talked about it. But I also have issues talking and communicating and it kinda cancels out both of our voices when we communicate or even argue especially when I’m not being honest about how I feel and I feel bad for when I do that. I don’t know why it’s hard for me to express myself, even now it’s hard because I over think and I’m worried Im saying stuff against my boyfriend when I’m not. I love him, I just I guess I need help to better myself?

My question is what can I do to talk more about how I feel? And if anyone wants to talk one on one so they can understand more, I also have anger issues so I get angry at myself at times too.

But I think that’s all I have to say for now, sorry for all the chatting.

[mossy basin]

<@&993332385670246420> hi guys I heard it’s be okay if I pinged so sorry

[woven edge]

This might not be the answer to the question you were asking, but this seems like it might help: maybe you need a push or motivation to work toward something too, if you aren't already

Like you motivated your boyfriend to work toward a larger goal, and maybe you need a larger goal too

Do you have any big hobbies or interests right now?

[mossy basin]

Yeah I should, I need to find a new job and probably find an interest into something

I watch YouTube and play on the Xbox with my laptop every now and then, to pass the time

[mossy basin]

I lowkey feel lonely, basically my boyfriend like was on call with friends which I don’t mind but we were kinda suppose to watch a move together this weekend

They stayed up all night and stuff and even to the point where he fell asleep, and his friend was kinda sleeping on call with him??

Like they stayed up listening to him sleep bc he passed out and didn’t mute

It was a server where he’s making his series and stuff ,, and idk

Idk I kinda just wish I had more people to chat with I guess I’m just lonely

<@&993332385670246420> sorry for ping but can anyone help on what I should do

Or can someone chat with me

[tulip plover]

ping doesn't work here ig

[mossy basin]

Oh I might just start tapping in vent then for future reference

[tulip plover]

anyways you are just distracting yourself from what you could be doing it seems, you gotta reduce distraction and be more productive to find a job and better yourself as well

for productivity you can try: Pomodoro timer, white noise, timeboxing with google calendar and such

for blocking quick youtube opening and binging: unhook extension

I'm kinda new to this so I could be not best but I just try to help around

[mossy basin]

No worry i see you helping a lot of people and it’s awesome you’re doing that

[mossy basin]

I use to have a job in struggling to find a new one , I see what you’re saying and I do need to be more productive, I’ll try to figure something out and take your advice thanks

I just idk man I miss him alot more now

[tulip plover]

are you male or female cause I got way less experience with gay relations

[mossy basin]

Male