i need to know whats happening

[toxic kite]

so for some reason i cannot show any true emotions. i havent truly smiled or laughed in the past 2 weeks. i cant cry even though i feel like bawling my eyes out. i need to know whats happening because its making me crazy.

[bright pivot]

I've been there. But obviously we're both different people with different life, so I can't exactly tell what's happened to you

It's that feeling of wanting to let it all out but the body just won't do anything, you smile because you have to, not because you want to. This is probably a defense mechanism, you've pushed yourself a little too much. It's a way for your body to say (and mind) that something is broken, and you need to take a few step back. At least that's based from my experience.

Anyway, it's alright, it'll all be one day. That I can promise. Just hold on for another day. Im sorry if my insights are nothing at all, I hope you'll get through this one. Much love

[toxic kite]

thanks man, its been driving me crazy, glad im not the first. how did you get out of it?

[bright pivot]

It's a bit underwhelming, but I usually write it out, or draw something of the sort, im an artist.

Most times I'd listen to music, but I avoid the sad ones. It makes it worse 🥲

But my favorite way is to take a walk really. But I recommend you speak about this to someone you really trust. That one did a number to me

[toxic kite]

thats my only problem. i barely trust anyone because the last time i told someone my problems, he told everyone and everyone made fun of me. thats where my trust issues originated from.

[bright pivot]

Oh, is this person still in your life?

[toxic kite]

not really, i barely see him. i only have 1 period with him at school, and i sit completely away from him.

[bright pivot]

He's an ass for that, that's for sure ://

I am sorry to hear that though. People like that make healing so much more difficult, you'd end up bottling it up instead

[toxic kite]

yea, i called him crying because one of my friends tolf me that he was gonna ||kill himself|| and wasnt answering my calls.

[bright pivot]

If talking to someone isn't an option, then taking a walk would do something to help. I can't promise it will, but definitely

Stop looking at your phone too much too. I am not your dad lmao but, I reckon it will help

[bright pivot]

Oh, I've been here too. Like almost the same situation. A friend of mine said the same thing to me. Except I didn't have anyone to reach out to at the time

How is this friend of yours now?

[toxic kite]

hes doing okay by the looks of it. weve been friends for a little over a year now.

[bright pivot]

I am sorry, I was busy 🥲

Anyways. That's good, from the looks of it you're a good friend yourself

These feelings you're feeling rn is inevitable to everyone, one way or another, you'd have to deal with this at some point.

I take it you're still a young teenager, teenager generally have volatile emotions, and mood swings all over. This is part of growth.