static mesa
Ugh, I just can't take it anymore! Every day feels like a never-ending cycle of loneliness and pressure. School used to be fun, I swear. I liked hanging out with my friends and joking around, but now it feels like I’m just… invisible. It's like I walk into class and people just ignore me. I sit there, trying to laugh and join in, but everyone just looks through me like I'm not even there. It hurts, you know?
And don’t get me started on my parents. They’re always on my case about grades and schoolwork. It’s like I’m not allowed to have a bad day or mess up even a little. “Bodi, you need to get straight A’s,” they say. “You should be proud of yourself if you focus!” But all I feel is pressure. I’m in seventh grade, and I just want to breathe without feeling this weight on my shoulders.
Sometimes I think about what it would be like if I just didn’t exist for a bit. I don’t really want to hurt myself or anything, I just want the pain to stop. I feel trapped in this dark hole with no way out. I want to scream at the top of my lungs but what’s the point? I’m just a kid, and it feels like no one gets it.
I wish I could just be a normal kid, you know? Goof off with friends, have sleepovers, and not worry about disappointing everyone around me. Sometimes I just want to run away or disappear for a bit. It’s so frustrating. There’s a part of me that wants to fight through it, but another part is just so tired. Tired of feeling left out, tired of trying to meet expectations.
I just want someone to notice me… to tell me it’s okay to not be perfect all the time. I don’t want to feel this way anymore.
harsh path