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I'm using AI to help me express myself better because I really need help. I struggle with severe anxiety, especially during exams. When I encounter even a few difficult questions, I panic to the point where I feel like throwing up, crying, and just running to my mom for comfort. It's not an exaggeration—I lose control and forget everything, even my own name.
For example, during my exam today, I was so overwhelmed that I struggled to write my name on the second paper. This is really hard for me because I know I'm a capable student. I've always scored above 90, but recently, my grades have dropped into the 60s, and it feels devastating.
On top of that, for the past few weeks, something in the back of my mind has been haunting me—something I can’t control. Every day, I have at least 4 suicidal thoughts, and they come out of nowhere. I don’t want them, but they keep showing up. I even imagine myself holding a knife, a gun, or a rope and ending my life, and it’s terrifying because I’m not trying to think about it—it just happens.
Please, I need help. I’m only 15 years old, and I don’t know how to deal with this anymorev
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