#My friend is going though some stuff help please

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atomic shoal
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my friends message he sent me today i dont know what to do:
I dont understand i am happy then im not i can’t explain it this is a vent post sorry in advance, people dont believe in stuff like demons and ghosts am i crazy for believing in them? For thinking one is my friend? For knowinh they want to kill me? I dont understand myself i hate myself my brain how i think how i see life i dont have a future if nothing works out then its lights out, i hate myself for hating myself so many people have it worse and all i do is complain im a peice of shit, im only nice to people to pay back all the sins ive committed, my mind what goes on inside my head i feel like im insane talking to the voices inside my head, gibberish,chaos,depression, mother and the veteran. I hate it so much they all try to talk and it drives me insane i remember things from it i remember all the horrible things ive seen and done i want to just stop existing, i feel like i wasent meant to be born I thought i was adopted for a vouple years since i couldn’t feel what other people feel towards thier family, i have no idea what normal people feel. I had no friends no one i admired when i was younger i made up fictional characters and a fictional world i spend more time in than the real world, i know im going to be a failure i already am, im a horrible son, a bad friend, a bad boyfriend, a bad bestfriend, a bad student, a bad teacher, the only thing i take comfort in is knowing when i die so many peoples lives will be better
Life goals:
train someone give someone advice to help with with life, be there for them like no one was there for me
have intercourse, this is self explanatory
Die a happy death, i want to die happily i want to die protecting someone
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me and him both

cyan tree
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He seems like has some Sort of Trauma or something , if he has he should problably Go do therapie. And maby spend time with him like a Lot or t something like that , what i mean support him . ( This is no professional advice stuff i dont know anything ) Good luck with youre Friend

atomic shoal