idle crown
So basically my only friend i have is struggling a bit with some mental-health stuff right. And they are a BIG risk to themselves and they don't treat themselves the best (they do ||SH||) and have thoughts about ||death|| involving themselves if you know what I mean.
And basically during this time of day those thoughts get bad and the urges of ||SH|| start but he is always online and i calm him down and comfort him etc, but today he has not been online at all, he never goes out his house is is never busy with anything so i'm really scared that he might have "done it" of something because he could do that.
I cannot get him to answer any texts on any platform at all and he always texts back straight away. I can't get hold of him to check up on him. He could be sleeping or something but he never sleeps at this time.
I am the only person that knows about the stuff he is going through and what happens, so I almost look after him in a way and it's frightening knowing that he has gone ghost.
Knowing all the stuff he has and is going through takes a toll on me because it's not nice knowing but I have to push past my emotions to make sure that he is ok.
I have put aside my mental-health and problems to be with him and do what i can to help because he is the only friend that i have and i don't want anything to happen.
I need some advice help or support or something because this is just too much.
balmy snow