I can’t feel anything and I don’t know why.

[sand notch]

Idk what’s wrong with me, for a while now (last like 4-7 years) I’ve found it hard to feel anything, I feel out of touch with my emotions and who I am. I’ve thought the way I’ve been thinking and living was normal, but recently I’ve realized how much I lack empathy for everything. I lack it in how I socialize which causes me to usually try really hard to appeal to everyone around me, bc if I don’t I apparently look emotionless and careless, it makes me not show emotion in bad situations, for example my uncle was on a call with a date while playing Fortnite. Me and my sister were being nosy and listening and at one point when he was taking about his ex and what happened he was I guess having a hard time explaining what happened and I basically blurted out what happened and followed with “it’s not that hard.” The person he was calling didn’t hear that but after the call and after I got off my sister brought up how wrong what I said was. While she told me this and while thinking back on it never crossed my mind how technically wrong it was what I said. However to me all I could think was how when I’ve been in similar situations, having to explain something traumatic or painful, I describe it in like 2 words, quick and short. Not out of how I can’t talk about the situation but out of how little empathy I have over the situation. This has made me realize how turned off my empathy and emotions are. It has made me realize how much of a hollow human being I am. I know it sound corny but what Dexter feels in the show, his feeling of being out of touch with his emotions, I relate completely to that (minus the killing stuff) this lack of empathy has also made me realize how I can’t bond that well, like when people try to bond with me I’m just giving the most short answers out of the fact that I don’t know how to bond I guess, I don’t understand this and I want to fix it because it makes me realize that in the future I will not be able to maintain a romantic relationship or any

[sand notch]

relationships due to the fact that I can’t feel nor bond nor connect with others properly

[open herald]

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