I’m 16, and I need help and advice.
I have lately been struggling a lot with everything, my grades have fallen off a lot, because I can't seem to study at all, I can't even focus well in class, I’m always burnt out and often don’t even feel like going at all.
Even if I try my best. And as much as I feel alright during the day, at night I'm always either crying or just not able to sleep at all, always feeling guilty. Then I just end up staying awake till high hours in the morning, specially since dealing with my father's death a few months ago.
I also made a friend a few months ago who i used to talk to a lot, I cut her off completely at this point, without any reason at all, whenever I reply, my replies are very dry, and I can tell, whenever she sends anything I just don't know what to say back, so I end up not even replying to her, I feel like she doesn't know what to say either, sometimes her presence alone makes me mad.
I also struggle with religion, I'm not religious at all, I just want to live, I don’t wish to be religious.
Specially since all of my family is very religious, and the only one who wasn't, was my dad, who now passed away. I love my mother and I know she is trying her best, but sometimes she just has to make comments about how I'm not religious at all just to put me down.
I’ve also been having a lot of self exiting thoughts, even if I never did anything to myself, but I feel like it’s not so serious.
I feel like I changed too much and more to the negative side.
@ me for anything
#A bit of everything.
quiet flax
hollow tartan
I relate to you a lot, only thing is i have my father but hes been absent a lot, hes always been emotionally distant, sometimes hes angry n stuff , my mother is abusive towards me, honestly I find music really helpful, to keep the emotions down and feel at ease
quiet flax
I relate to you a lot, only thing is i have my father but hes been absent a lot,...
Thank you for the advice, I also listen a lot to music though, I find it helpful to keep my mind away, what music do you usually listen to? maybe I can give it a shot, I’m sorry and glad that you can find my situation relatable, I hope your relationship with your mother can get better and she’s able to realize her abusive behavior doesn’t lead to nowhere good, my father also got angry very easily, turns out he had a high blood pressure, but about yours being emotionally distant, is there a reason this might be happening?
hollow tartan
I like this "band" its called cigarettes after sex, but also TV girl or micropop music from Jackstauber, i dont like french music but I love this song called sometimes by princess chelsea and mattyeux
Mother mother also
quiet flax
I listen to cigarettes after sex, I really enjoy their music, and it’s one of the bands I can find myself immersed in, will give the other music a shot.
quiet flax
Do u like mitski aswell?
I have listened to one or two songs but I’m not a regular listener, do you recommend her to me?
hollow tartan
yes, i love all her songs even though sometimes they make me cry😭
quiet flax
Her music must be really good then, I will give her music a shot, thank you for your recommendations.