topaz laurel
I won't be sharing any names of sorts, but I'll just be referring to myself as mango, and the two people as N and K. I've known N for about a year now, strictly online. We got to know eachother over video games, and got closer to eachother day by day. We've bonded over things like experiences, relationships, likes and dislikes, etc etc. They has strong beliefs, and I have strong beliefs, and we agree for the most part, even when we disagreed we never let it split us apart. I really look (or looked, idk how im feeling anymore) up to them like an older sibling. I honestly loved them. Like I said, they have strong beliefs, which often were projected against me. I had no problem with it, sometimes it would hurt but I knew when they were talking about their opinions, it obviously wasn't directed towards me. They wouldn't be talking to me if they had. But, they made it clear that it's very hard to trust those people, and I fall under the category of those people. I didn't worry about it, though, because I made sure to show them I cared, that I had faith and trust in them, that I loved them. I've dropped friends for them, dropped in weight for them, took inspiration from them, forgave them even when they wronged me. I never ever wanted to let anything get in between us. In my entire time knowing them, no one had treated them as good as I did other than K. We met K a few months after we met each other, they come from the same faith as me. We bonded like brothers, I treat them like that and still talk to them daily. They are also an inspiration to me, and I have a great deal of respect for them. K had fallen for N, and treated them so respectfully and kindly. We were all such good friends, whenever there would be bad blood between us we'd talk it out in a day, come to understand each other. The day before I distanced myself from N I had told them both I loved them and appreciated them. Then, one day I'm talking with N and they bring up my religion. They say that they think it's a BS religion, and that it's hateful and violent and supports many bad things. I have never really minded any criticisms against my faith, but I hold my faith deeply in my heart. I thought she would understand that even if we had difference in beliefs, we could still be friends, so I was never mad at her for saying that stuff about it. I actually never really wanted to talk that much about my religion, obviously I would bring it up time to time but I never expect anyone to accept it or force it onto anyone. When she said those things, I didn't want to argue, so I simply told her I accept her opinions and cared for her a lot. Then she said that without my religion, I would be a bad person. I didn't agree, and it made me feel really sad, but I really didn't wanna argue anymore, so I just ended it by saying no matter how much she might try to convince me I won't change my faith. After that we stopped talking, I sent her one message right after the argument about watching a movie together and she didn't respond. She stopped texting K first, the day prior they were talking about it as well, and he was under the same impression that she didn't care what he believed in. Our beliefs never attacked her, just to clarify I wouldn't believe in anything that would attack her. Even if my faith did say those things, it's not a reflection of the person I am, and I was always one to call out hypocrisy in my religion. All the claims she made were fine to make, but to claim they were true and refuse to do an ounce of proper research on them made me not wanna even talk about my faith in the first place. Everytime I suggested she just read the book, she'd decline.
I just don't understand why she would drop us over this. I never made claims about her beliefs once, We treated her so much better than so many other people, I've given her so much even with nothing in return, and she dropped us because we believe in a religion.