i hate falling in love

[sacred gull]

why does it always end horribly? its already so hard for me to catch feelings. and the only time i do, i get like- instant bad luck with the person. if only i didnt do what i did on that day. if only they never met. they shouldve liked me. im so petty i hate it. i just went completely non verbal and i ignored them both. shit like this always happening makes me lose faith in finding love. ever. love is a fcking pain in my ass. never fails to make me hate being concious. i wish i could just slip away and for everybody to just forget me

[potent ibex]

first let me ask why you want love so desperately

[sacred gull]

i dont. i hate falling in love. it ruins everything for me. this time i just got carried away

i didnt mean to

[potent ibex]

and how does it ruin everything

i may fall asleep randomly and may not give u expert advice

so yk take your time darling

[sacred gull]

gives me more feelings i dont need and cant handle, just more of a hassle on my day to day life

[potent ibex]

and when it goes you feel bad?

[sacred gull]

hmm i guess
thats why i try to avoid it. not only does it make me feel terrible when i first develop one, but it feels worse when it doesnt work out