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I’ve started to realise that I have narcissistic personality disorder. I found some information on an online platform and believe the symptoms apply to me. I am an extroverted narcissist. I want people to show me attention and for their relationships with others not to be better than mine. Deep down, I know I think this way because I fear being excluded.
I feel like a complete failure, yet I often succumb to my ego, convincing myself that I’m achieving many things and that I’m smarter than everyone else. I think I’m on the path to becoming the smartest and invincible person one day, believing I can gain knowledge from wise people and sometimes manipulate them. I feel I can only connect with wise or highly intelligent individuals. Until now, I’ve barely realised how off-putting and arrogant I’ve been towards those around me. I have no one left around me because of these traits. Despite doing nothing and being harmful to the world, I act as if I possess incredible intelligence, doing things that others cannot. I see myself at a level comparable to Einstein. I learned from the online platform that I need to seek help from a professional. I haven’t consulted a professional yet, but until I do, I want to seek help from you all.
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