Relex bro! Got you!
you will be fine!
#I have no hope left, ik it might seem small but i just want to be loved.
stuck ginkgo
My past self has affected my whole life and my reputation
do you feel like you are inferior or something like that when you go out and see new people or meet/see your old friends?
At this point in time i have experienced lots of pain, i have had so many down moments but lately i have improved, i have escaped my past self
can you tell in short what happened?
sometimes it happens we feel like a big issue and people might see it as a big issue but in reality people just don't care and its all right!
Whats even worse is that i wont be able to get a Girlfriend or somebody that loves me
I personally don't think you should go and run for a girlfriend, they are not magician to fix everything, instead do find someone who trust and tell them everything you need
edit: maybe you trying to say is, what you did rn distorted your future gfs right? no it didn't! love has so much power its not dependent upon things you did in past all what matters is how you act in the present
your roles say you are between 15-17,
trust me bro, life even starts at 14-year yo,
so maybe something you did to anyone, or someone did you to is not that big as you think if its done to/by the people at your age.
talk to someone you trust open fully to them and they will fix it!
you are still very very very very young to fix everything!
so stop thinking:
I just wish i wasn't a bad person before so it wouldn't have affected me this much today
I am sure you didn't did anything major and even if you did it can fixed! talk to some-elder you trust and if you dont find anyone the voice channel of the server and ask for help!