fresh merlin
Tw: ||self harm, suicide||
Ever since I was a very young boy, I always got scolded or beat for not doing something good enough. I didn't get a B in this class. I didn't do well on a test. This thank you card isn't thankful enough. Fast forward to today, I get demotivated from doing anything because I overcomplicate it because I feel like I'm not good enough. I beat myself up about it || sometimes literally || and have been recently thinking about || suicide ||. This has been a serious problem on ever since I started high school in August, but started in 7th grade. I can't tell whether people are talking bad about me behind my back. I feel like I'm a useless friend. I can't motivate myself to do shit. I feel shitty. I feel like I'm a burden to people. I don't have the guts to tell my family or some of my friends cause I'm scared they'll call it petty. I just need somebody to talk to because I don't have anybody to talk to.
vernal cove