I failed and I wanna do it again because I failed.I give up.I didn't search up p**n just now because I saw a picture of an angel in deep thought sitting down at a table with fruits splattered and dropped on the floor..I can see a reflection of my current situation in this picture as if my fruits have been dropped and my life is messy.But yet I sit and wait like amidst the chaos.I do not have control, but like that angel I am there and I am doing nothing.To define my current state is to limit, and to do nothing is crucially better than doing something right now.
#I am an angel.
winged walrus
steep parrot
Feeling like you have no control can be the worst. What I recommend, but please remember I am just some random person on the internet, is finding one thing a day you can control, and take joy in it. Maybe you decided to eat something healthy, or started a new hobby because you wanted to. You can’t, unfortunately, take everything into control at once, but take little steps each day.
Does this help?
winged walrus
No sir it does not.My life does not revolve around such things and I know just how much control I have over my life and actions from experience.Right now I can and will and I am obligated to control my confidence, my lust, and my willpower.I need to keep going.
steep parrot
No sir it does not.My life does not revolve around such things and I know just h...
You got this, 100%.
winged walrus
thank you, and remember the name "Pondus" or "Quies" my future son.
steep parrot
thank you, and remember the name "Pondus" or "Quies" my future son.
And if you have a daughter?
winged walrus
For a daughter..That was suppose to be my ex's job..But..She has left me to get better on my own
steep parrot
For a daughter..That was suppose to be my ex's job..But..She has left me to get ...
Oh… well, guess it’s up to you at the moment.
winged walrus
Yes..She chose Genisis, by the way.She isnt into such philosophical and passionate things as me but she still did try and it was cute to see her match my personality for choosing a name
steep parrot
Yes..She chose Genisis, by the way.She isnt into such philosophical and passiona...
What happened between you two? If you don’t mind me asking.
winged walrus
Our relationship was all about making me a better person, healing my trauma, and helping me relax and control myself
She left me to focus on herself instead of me and her
And I understood
She held all my passions and dreams and ideas inside her and it did feel like I was losing part of my spirit without her but I know even if she never thinks of me again, me getting better and doing the things ive always wanted to do in this uncertain life will be in her name
I just have to keep going and she knows I will