i don't know what to do

[vestal coral]

i can't explain this via chat its way too long. can i talk to someone?

if i were to summarise, i ended things with her last night, but i never lost feelings for her and i dont think she lost feelings for me. but i ended it because she never communicated her feelings to me even if she liked me because shes very insecure and i would always compliment her and make her feel better about herself and always share my feelings with her. she even said that she was grateful for that. but i dont really know if she really liked me and how much. but i loved her. even if its only been 5 months since we've been talking. and we both confessed our feelings to each other 3 months ago too but she didn't want us to be considered dating because it overwhelmed her. so i dont know what i should do next.

but the thing is, i know i rushed things a lot. i was very pushy. i didn't want her to deal with that, so i ended things. especially cuz she didn't want anything serious with me to begin with. or at least thats how i felt. i would try to get her to tel me how she realy feels about me by telling her how i feel about her myself. but it always ended up failing. she told me that we weren't friends, but we wern't dating either, and that we were somewhere in between but i want to be her boyfriend. i want to be able to love her and feel loved back

i know im supposed to build this slowly, and we were even making a lot of progress recently too. thats why i regret ending things with her last night. we've started talking more in school. but we've never gone on a date. and she doesn't want us to until next smumer either because of exams.

i dont know what to do

i want to ask her what she really wanted from me right now

but is it too late/

shes very sad right now

[vestal coral]

the sad part is. im a very jealous person. and she has a guy best friend that she communicates with so nicely

whenever we talk in school, she gets very tense

or it feels like shes running away

but i know she likes me

shes told me that she does a few times actually

and recently, we've been getting better at talking to each other

i just had to be stupid and end things with her

when everything was getting better

i hate myself for that

[vocal spade]

Talk to her again brother

[vestal coral]

personally, judging this situation and the way she texts me, i think that i am deeping the whole situation way too much, because she acts so casual about this and thinks that we only like each other a bit and aren't actually going to be anything serious.

what do i say

[vocal spade]

Ay wait I feel like I have to read this again

[vestal coral]

dude its so so so long

i overthink things way too mcuh

much

[vocal spade]

She sounds so unsure of you

Like being low key is already enough

[vestal coral]

she really does.

[vocal spade]

It is possible that she likes you, but not enough to pursue you

[small slate]

teka lng ah ill js try n understand everything

[vestal coral]

thats how i felt

[vocal spade]

I think she wants to be in a situationship

[vestal coral]

me too

(i think that what she thinks too)

[small slate]

if pag ganyan sya, all i can say is be patient with someone who cant open up to you

kasi shes not used to having someone that yk whos truly there for her

[vestal coral]

yes ik that

i tried

i dont think i was patient enough, and thats why i regret ending things with her last night

[vocal spade]

Its also possible that she's keeping you as "an option". Like you have this good dress but you feel like you can find a better dress but you still kept it in your cart because it's possible that you won't find a better dress in the store.

[vocal spade]

Nahh brother

[vestal coral]

i highly doubt that

[vocal spade]

It's simple, she can't give you want you want

[vestal coral]

but it felt like we were getting there recently.

she was slowly starting to open up to me a bit too

and then i had to be stupid

[vocal spade]

Like how ba?

[vestal coral]

and greedy

and end it

[vestal coral]

normally if i had asked her if she WANTED me to do something with her, she wouldn't have answered

[small slate]

well what did u do for you to end up ending it with her?

if u dont mind telling yk

but if u cant i can understand

[vocal spade]

Yeah, you deserve someone better..

[vestal coral]

im not sure i get the question

[vestal coral]

no i think she was just overwhelmed

but recently

she asked me

to meet up with her

during recess

on mondays and fridays

to go to the french room

[vocal spade]

You said you ended things with her because she never communicates with her, right?

[vestal coral]

and study french

w her

but when i asked her if she WANTS me to go with her, she said "if you want" then i asked her again and she said yes

she thinks so lowly of herself

i want to help her have a better self esteem

i think patience was the right way to do it

but i wasn't patient

and ended things

[vocal spade]

Do you think you guys should've talked more about this instead of breaking up or you felt like communication with her has impossible progress?

[vestal coral]

she never communicates her feelings to me

and she doesn't do that with ANYONE

she told me that

i tried to be the guy she would communicate her feelings to

for months

[small slate]

as in never talaga?

[vestal coral]

she would occasionally, or she would try to

[vocal spade]

We cannot be the right person for the wrong people :((

[vestal coral]

she honestly tried i wont lie

she really did

she told me that she really likes me once

even when i confessed to her, she said that she thouht it was a prank and was hesitant to confess her own feelings to me.

[vocal spade]

Tbh I feel like from the very beginning it's bound to fail. Giving her self esteem is not your job, trying to love people who does not love themself can be impossible

[vestal coral]

☹️

[small slate]

damn.

[vocal spade]

She may also have some internal problems too

[vestal coral]

i was left on read for a full day and a half

[vocal spade]

WAIT IS THAT TOO HARSH....

SORRY OP😭😭

[small slate]

HINDIE

hindi its cuz i can relate e.

[vocal spade]

OP, you really really really deserve better

[vestal coral]

and when she confessed to me, she did it on call. she said she wrote down her thoughts on her notes ap and read it to me. she said that she liked me and never expected me to like her back and was goign to die with the secret that she liked me (as a joke)

😭

the only person she would talk to about me was her guy best friend

[vocal spade]

Forget about "I should have waited, I should have been more patient". You deserve someone better than this. You deserve someone that is ready to assure you their love everyday, not just "sometimes"

[vestal coral]

cuz she said that her female friends are all mean and would laugh at her face if they knew she liked me

[small slate]

she took her time kasi

[vestal coral]

um your speaking in a differen languagesometimes i think😭😭

[vocal spade]

Yeah she is😭😭

[small slate]

O i thought uhm IM SORRY I THOUGHT UR FROM THE PHILIPPINES ASWELL.

[vestal coral]

LMAOOOO

[vocal spade]

HAAHHAHAHAAHHAA

[vestal coral]

why🤣🤣

[vocal spade]

I like this thread ngl😭😭

[vestal coral]

😭😭

[vocal spade]

But going back...

[vestal coral]

is it okay for me to show you guys some of our chats.

ill block her name out and stuff

[small slate]

am i tripping or cuz i swear i saw the word philippines in here

[vestal coral]

ill show chats from last night

[vocal spade]

Go on brother:))

[small slate]

if ure comfortable sure

[vestal coral]

okay

[vocal spade]

I typed Philippine in another thread bcuz the OP was from there too lol

[vestal coral]

im tryna get them

[small slate]

OH MY DAYS IM SORRY AHAHSHJ

[vestal coral]

hmm

how do i send screenshots

can we call somehow if you guys can?

[vocal spade]

Suree

[small slate]

i can try yea

[vocal spade]

Want me to make a group dm?

[vestal coral]

yeah sure

you guys are really helpful btw thanks

i didn't think i could trust a free public discord therapy gc😭😭😭

[vocal spade]

Glad to hear that :DD

Accept me yall

[small slate]

me neither i js got some advice here that i believe that can change my situation around

[uncut jackal]

my friend said in-person therapy is a waste of time
according to her theyre just like
you: "something happened and I was sad"
therapist: "and how did that make you feel?"
you: "sad"
therapist: "and how did being sad make you feel"

[vocal spade]

HHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHA😭