#a different ending?

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keen raven
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Hi, my name is cherri and I am a 20 year old gal that has alot of mental issue's.

But that's a different story for another time.

I feel like first I wana explain myself about a spefeic thing so this situation makes more sense on my side.

Ever since I was a little girl,  I always watched Disney with my dad when he was alive, I always had Aladin and Jasmine and Rapunzel and Eugene as my favorite Disney couples because they were captivating for me.

Just of how the prince makes the first step of action to brighten up the princes world, treat her like a lady, where they go on all these adventures life throws at them together.
(Yes cheesey I know)

And I always told my father "Papa, I want my own prince to take me to my house in the woods!!."

And ever since then he and my mother has taught me information of relationships.
To the point where I started to grow a desire and dream to be in my own relationship.

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Where I have my own safe person, someone who loves me for me and even also my flaws
Someone who loves and cares for me where when they see me on my lowest point, they know to just reach in and hold me close and maybe even for a cherry on top , pull a blanket over my head to make me feel safer and snug in his arms.

Someone who cares if I leave or stay, someone who knows when is the right moment to just pull me close as I mentally break down into tears , to just pull me to a private space and just hold me close and remind me to breathe slowly and that everything will be okay.

Someone I can grow up with in life and enjoy everything together with that person.

Go on dates, kiss under the stars, play games with them and get competitive and cocky. Someone to grow up with in life as our paths may intertwine but eventually grow into one.

Someone where when the time is right(like we been together for a long time and he feels ready)he wants to make me his by proposing and saying "I want to make you mine for all eternity."

I just want to be apart of something like that and this has been about 4 relationships I been through.

Where honestly I feel mentally sick to myself feeling like there is no one out there for me like this guy was.

I know there is other fish in the sea but this fish was the one I wanted.

royal stirrup
keen raven
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I know

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I just really loved him and he felt different

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There was more info I was typing but I reached the limit

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And wanted to be respectful of the rules

royal stirrup
keen raven
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But long story short he broke up with me because he had mental issues he wanted to handle and said he felt like he wasnt ready for a relationship like he thought

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And what's different for me is this is my first time having a breakup that was healthy

royal stirrup
keen raven
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Is it bad if I feel hopefull ?

royal stirrup
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Hopeful regarding what?

west bane
keen raven
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Like hopeful as in since we are friends
We start off right and simple getting to know each other and maybe in future time grow to become one of those couples who get back together?

keen raven
west bane
royal stirrup
keen raven
west bane
keen raven
west bane
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But maybe im wrong thats are Just my experience

royal stirrup
keen raven
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west bane
keen raven
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royal stirrup
keen raven
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west bane
keen raven
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I feel like I just wana be thankful we are friends and be there for him since I still care and see where time goes and focus on myself for awhile

Would this be a safe dession?

keen raven
royal stirrup
west bane
keen raven
# royal stirrup What would "being there for him" imply?

Like just being there if he needs someone to vent to

Just the simple things of chatting since he has actually been there for me after this breakup

Because to be honest the more we chat with each other (Just rarely afew days kinda,sometimes a half week)
It feels like closure for me

keen raven
west bane
royal stirrup
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keen raven
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No not really, basically what happens is

After the break up happened, it was about two weeks later he texts me a simple "Hey I hope work is going well and I hope you have a good day."

And afew times we have small talk just saying how our jobs are going and life is going and that's it

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The only thing is we communicate very rarely in a healthy way in my opinion where the other person isn't being bugged constantly

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Like instead of every single day it's just rarely in a day on a rare occasion he texts me

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And when we talk, it some how gives me closure since this is the first time I'm still even talking to someone I use to date since my previous relationships where extremely toxic

west bane
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keen raven
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Oh I never realized that's what it could have been

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It kinda makes sense to me to be honest

west bane
royal stirrup
# keen raven It kinda makes sense to me to be honest

This is where the line between reality and fiction is drawn. In fiction, "love" is a a magical thing that makes everything possible and doesn't know any limits and all the typically Hollywood trope. In reality, the circumstances are stronger than your feelings, and if the circumstances are not fit for a relationship to develop, it will not develop.
So if you're both having mental health issues making it difficult to develop a successful relationship, it will not develop, not matter how obsessed you are with each other.

keen raven
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Oh okay, to be honest after hearing this I feel like I wana focus on myself further then.

And I feel like I still wish to be friends with him since he is kind to me. But I am going to try and push these feelings of attachment of the relationship we had to the side then.

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So that way I can focus on my own mental health for a good while

west bane
keen raven
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I just wanted to thank you both of this , I'm feeling alot more better having a clear head on my shoulders

keen raven
west bane
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Protein Cookie? Im in a diet xD

keen raven
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Oh oki then!!

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And you get one too@royal stirrup !!

west bane
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I Love to Help people the Server is so kind

keen raven
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Well I love making new friends and I'm glad to meet you two!!

west bane
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🥹🥹

royal stirrup
keen raven
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Well I better be off since I am about to clock out!!

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Bye byeee!!