#I enjoy hurting others and I feel unstoppable

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calm pecan
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I find it find and entertaining to gaslight and manipulate other people. I feel like a god half the time and the I think i am better and more important then everyone to have ever lived. Hurting others makes me happy and makes me feel good. I enjoy it and I love doing it. I love being mean. I honestly use it to cope with life's stresses. The wellbeing of others does not concern me because there are no real consequences for being mean and abusing others for fun. It isn't a crime. If they leave I'll find someone else. No one else has any value and they are all worthless and insignificant in comparison to me. I enjoy and tske pride in the downfall of others. I've thought about getting help but why should I? I am on top of the world.

jolly socket
calm pecan
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I'm on top of the world

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I'm happy

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I'm successful

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Why should the wellbeing of others be an issue to me? Why should I care? I gain nothing by caring so why should i

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Caring about others is almost always a negative as caring about them means they could hurt you

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So don't care...don't get hurt

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W

jolly socket
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what if your loved ones started treating you like shit and loved to be mean to you, called you worthless etc.

calm pecan
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I'd just stop talking to them

jolly socket
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so it hurts right?

calm pecan
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Yes

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That's the point isn't it

jolly socket
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it hurt you that much to the point where you dont want to talk to your loved ones anymore

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right that is the point, so why do it to others

calm pecan
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Because I enjoy it

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It's fun

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It's entertaining

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It makes me happy

jolly socket
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yea i think you need to rlly see a therapist im not gonna lie

calm pecan
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I saw one for a while

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She said I had NPD

jolly socket
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did it help?

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wuts NPD?

calm pecan
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Narcissistic personalty disorder

jolly socket
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oh yea you definitely are

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did she suggest anything for you to do to help yourself?

calm pecan
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It's a personality disorder there isn't much you can do

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I understand what jt is and why i have it

jolly socket
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im sure there is, you just have to actually try and change yourself for the better

calm pecan
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The truma that lead to it that is

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I attempt to try to understand others but fail

jolly socket
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otherwise if your gonna keep being like this, youll end up in a rlly bad path

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but if you understand that feeling of being hurt, you should know then?

calm pecan
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You can't avoid it

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Just become numb to it and stop caring enough to get hurt

jolly socket
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yes hurt is part of life, but your doing it intentionally

calm pecan
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Lets also add that I don't see a lot of people as people

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And expect others to see me the same way I see them

jolly socket
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if your saying that you'd stop talking to your loved ones if they said the same thing as what your saying to hurt others, you clearly still do care

calm pecan
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I barely speak to them

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I speak to them when they speak to me

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I refuse to talk to my brother

jolly socket
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then you should start being the first to talk to them then, i myself have trouble talking to my family too, but atleast i still try to because you never know how long theyll be here for

calm pecan
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I have no issue with no talking to them

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I'm content with that

jolly socket
calm pecan
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I am

jolly socket
calm pecan
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I don't want kids

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My dad doesn't seem to care too much

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I do speak with my mom tho

jolly socket
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are you atleast grateful for your parents who took care of you?

calm pecan
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My mom yeah

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My dad was...there? That's about it

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Didn't do much

jolly socket
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does you parents or atleast you mom know about your issue?

calm pecan
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Yes

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They don't know my thought process tho

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My dad knows a little

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And just says "it's wrong"

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Which is an issue I have with how he thinks

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I don't believe anything is right or wrong. It depends on perspective

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Everyone thinks they're in the right 🤷‍♂️ and thinks others are wrong

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So it's meaningles

gleaming vine
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What’s your purpose of living?

severe jolt
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Can the mods not delete posts? Or just make a own channel for those kind?

jolly socket
# calm pecan So it's meaningles

In rare cases, sure it can be meaningless but that depends on the issue and what the perspectives are, in this case your dad is telling you its wrong, do you genuinely believe that its wrong to hurt others even though its fun for you?

jolly socket