ask a bedrotting loser girl anything

[random stag]

im bored so pls ask me questions and i will answer them 😁

[tropic thorn]

What makes you call yourself "loser"?

[random stag]

i have little to no self esteem, have some sort of undiagnosed mental health condition, no will to live while also being afraid of death and overall a lot of insecurity

so quite a multitude of reasons

[tropic thorn]

I am sure you are a fine person. In my experience people with low self esteem tend be good people who hav not had the best of luck when it comes to meeting quality people who treat them. In contrast the people with confidence can serial killers or other such monsters. Just remember that your worth it and do not take the word of who ever gurt you to heart, it does not matter who they are.

[woven elm]

don't worry we all are here because we are loser in our own way, but it seems u enjoy being a loser don't u thats good actually because than u can also become winner (opposite of this does not happen I tried) 😄

[spice gazelle]

u wanna be friendS?

[pallid frigate]

that sounds exactly like me minus the afraid of death thing

i have a question

what do you think its like after death?

[barren berry]

What "undiagnosed mental health condition"?

[random stag]

its like i know theres definitely something wrong with me because like regular people wouldnt act the way i do but due to limited resources and long waitlists theres little to to no chance of me ever getting any proper help

so i don’t actually know what is wrong with me but i know somethings up if that makes sense

[random stag]

just nothingness

[barren berry]

When you talk about "insecurity", is it more about social anxiety or about your appearance? And when it comes to no will to live, is that stemming from a deeper sadness and loneliness or just school being school?

[random stag]

insecurity id say is more social anxiety, and no will to live id say sadness and loneliness

[pallid frigate]

oh

[primal lotus]

How do they make flaming hot Cheeto puffs

[tender wing]

[barren berry]

Social Anxiety:

For me it was a problem of perspective; someone with social anxiety only focuses on their own appearance, and no thought is more important than this. Someone without it pays attention to the appearance of other people and is interested in them; this is the negating thought that you are lacking. So just start implementing this perspective.

Talking Side:
I used to have severe social anxiety, but now I only feel it before actually interacting with people I don’t see often, even if I’ve known them since childhood. Nowadays, talking feels more like just relaxing and enjoying the silence when I don't have a topic myself and when someone else brings up a topic, I ask questions, no matter how trivial or unrelated they may seem. They are never considered as trivial. Reading between the lines and active listening completely carry me socially, there really is no other way to talking.

Overthinking was also something that made it difficult for me, which is why I would always do 3-5 minutes of meditation in the morning and afternoon.

On Deep Sadness, even if that may not be too severe for you:
Friends with whom you frequently share some enjoyment, a sense of achievement, and therapeutic conversations can only help you through these difficult times. I have experienced complete anhedonia twice in my life, and 'happiness' has never arrived as something expected. Instead for me at least, with enough trying stuff out and chaos, with enough perspective shifts and the the necessary craziness that comes with changing your core values, your previous life, that has for sure not died and just hidden will eventually become part of who you are again; the excessive amount of bad-history has in a sense attacked the vivid power of your subconsciousness, it no longer knows how to make use of the past like a powerful nourishment, instead you feel lifelong chains that keep your your previous life in prison. There is something you could call “the unhistorical”, the ability to forget and to enclose oneself in a limited horizon, every day before getting up and going to bed I do 3-5 minutes of guided mediation and sometimes warm showers with conscious breathing against my overthinking and feeling of being tied down, has helped me a lot to formulate clearer thoughts and perspectives; by temporarily closing the doors and windows of consciousness, from the noise and struggle with which our underworld of servant organs work for and against each other; a little silence, a little tabula rasa of consciousness, so that there is room again for something new, because he who cannot settle down on the verge of the moment, forgetting all the past, without dizziness and fear, will never know what happiness is. In my experience, it was usually the case that my therapist motivated me to deal critically with my feelings more often during the day, I went out with friends a bit more often, I had a sudden burst of happiness, and then everything was getting better again.

And when it comes to making friends, you have many options: to explore hobbies, to engage in conversations with your classmates, to play various cooperative games.