I have no one, everyday is just an endless cycle, I blame myself for every ounce of loneliness and sadness I have and try everything to get out. Fitting in didn't work, 2 years in the gym and still feel nothing, swimming training still nothing. Only skiing lit the spark inside me and I cant do that except for 4 months of the year give or take. The one time I felt like I had something she broke my heart leaving me empty just as I was again but now its even worse since I got a taste for what a full heart feels like and she dropped me like I was nothing. I feel like a walking disappointment and I don't even know why, I feel so small in this giant world and I have no one next to me. School is just the universes way of rubbing everyone's social relations in my face, and I can't do anything about it, I got a anxiety attack on the first day this year because if how alone I was amongst everyone and I felt so exposed and vulnerable. I know no ones going to come help me and I should just toughen up and get over it but its been 4 years of this and I can't take it anymore, I don't want to kill myself but I just want to feel something other than emptiness but thats not going to happen.
#I feel lost
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naive dove
hit that pr, study more, change that lonleyness into an anger, a fire. make that fire so strong, an channel it into a goal to prove yourself to the world. besies, a lot of people are feeling what u feel. maybe your in the wrong place if u feel empty. idk man,
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I wish it were that easy bro, I cant change my place
shell pecan
I have no one, everyday is just an endless cycle, I blame myself for every ounce...
u have me
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Im you
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legit me