ancient monolith
hi uhm this is my vent or rant, id haven't fixed any of my problems yet feel like people keeps asking it for me to do it by my own since i know myself better, feel like my condition was keep being worser and worser the pointy it effected my family and relationships, I'd have asked my parents but they said that help will appear after the end of this month. My low self-esteem was destroying my mental health and keep being delusional day by day, id haven't provided any solution to keep me sane rather just to play Roblox, focusing on task was also consider a problem as id keep crying all the time the same problem was happening on repeat day by day by day and there was never a solution towards it. saying to focus on the problem on why keep acting like this. id hated depending on people but, id don't have any options don't really know what to do with myself. I wasn't like this was sometimes cool and calm but people opinions where inside my mind Aswell of negative possibilities. if this keeps up will be in a constant misery.
You see id have hyperactive deficit Attention disorder, Aswell of having bipolar depression, so it's difficult to not be dependent on others Aswell of my emotional dysregulation and it is difficult on balancing my own emotion because I've relied on them and highly sensitive, and they told me the only way is to fix that was logic, know but don't even try using it. Wow how smart of me and this is why I've let people down. My bipolar depression keeps kicking in, all the time I'm so happy and I'm too depressed. this is why id wished to never be born. they told me there are so many solutions but I'm here ranting and asking for help, the reason why it's because I wanted to ask whether there is any person who knows the solution Aswell of ranting and also journaling and reflecting to see whats really wrong.
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