molten zenith
I'm just really getting tired of everything. There was this cosplay convention coming up that one of my friends brought up durring comic con with some people we just met and they were all talking about going I'll call this friend Coconut. I asked if I could come and they replied with "Maybe but you have to ask Insert my other friend because they are the one that invited me" I'm gonna call other friend Apricot.
so when I next see Apricot I bring it up and I ask if It would be okay If I came and apricot said they didn't mind, but apparently they did because a couple of days later they tell me they cant house me anymore which was the only way I was gonna be able to go on the specific day they had planned to do stuff. They didnt tell me why til I was just pissed off at the situation and I thought they were mad at me, Only then was I told "Well we've been planning this for months and im not sure I want to change plans." So the new people Coconut and I met at con are aloud to be a change in ur plans but im not??? They told me I should come the day after and that they enjoy being around me. I was told "You and Coconut will have your days and me and Coconut will have our days not everyone will hangout toghether all the time and thats okay." THen why the hell did you make me believe you wanted me there couldve told me it was planned to be just you too before hand before telling me you were fine with it when you clearly werent. This is why I get paranoid because people tell me one thing and mean the other and I just freak out because I think theres some hidden meaning behind peoples words and I can't trust them. I told them to just forget I said anything and it doesnt matter anymore. It does matter. I'm very much hurt I don't wanna play tug of war with Coconut like were competting for their attention because were not. Atleast I'm not. I wanted to hang out with everyone who was gonna be there not just fucking Coconut. They might be your whole word but they arent mine and I'm sick of it seeming like some kind of competition because I want to hang out with Apricot to but they just seem to only wanna hang out with me when Coconuts there too. I asked Apricot to go with me before I asked Coconut and they never responded just told me they didnt see it.
boreal fulcrum