i dont think anyone cares 4 me anymore they know im gone too far and now a lost cause even my girlfriend has given up on me i think and i feel ending it would be my best move but this is my last ditch effort to have some kind of motivation 2 like not end it bc i believe there probably is a way out but i also think im too far gone 
#last ditch effort
oblique yoke
teal blaze
negotiate this with your girlfriend, you probably just need a break for a little while, not a break up just some time to yourself and if you still are like this please talk to people in real life about this because i am not qualified to give you therapy but i wish i could