Trying to fix my life. | The Therapy Center | Page 1

dreamy brook Aug 25, 2024, 12:21 PM

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I am trying to see how fast I can change myself since I have exams in less than 8 months and I am pretty much fucked. I tend to get very anxious when I am humiliated so what's a better way to change myself than to humiliate myself infront of like THOUSANDS of people idk man?

if I dont follow my schedule and update it here, many will see which makes me wanna try it. Since I do thingss under pressure.

You can def ignore this or maybe help me out 🧍 doesn't matter, I am just trying to record what I do everyday to self-reflect and find out the shit I do, which isn't beneficial in any way.

This is already stressing me out, thousands of people might just leave it unseen and idc ofc 👀 but its affecting meeeeeeeee so this is good, it's like I have personal mentors 🧍 (yes im weird but anything to fix my life and achieve my dream college 🤩)

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25/08/2024
4:30 am ~ Woke up

4:30- 4:47 am ~ Brush, Walk around, get NOT sleepy

4:47 - 6:30 am ~ Study genetics ch 2 (read the book, solved mcqs, pyqs)

6:30-8:40 am smthing ~ showered, breakfast, used a lot of phone.

8:40 smthing to 3:30 smthing pm~ attended lectures

3:40 smthing came home, its 6:04 rn and i have done barely any studies so I will now.
Nope, wasted all the time. (9:12pm)

NOPE, 10:36 and nothing at all
Yes nope didn't study

dreamy brook Aug 26, 2024, 6:10 AM

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i am very embarassed to even text again in this but im gonna keep going, since i dont wanna live like this anymore 🧍

i woke up pretty late today since its a holiday, 9:15 am ish

its about noon(11:40 am) but i havent started studying, i havent done ANYTHING even slightly productive, which I def hate so im gonna go study organic chem or smthing maybe 🥲 LETS HOPE I DO 🧍

i did study more than yesterday but not enough

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List of exams I need to focus on just as a reminder to myself that I'm fucking stuff up by not studying

School HY : 16 days remaining
PT: 9 days remaining
TE: 16 days remaining
NSEB: 90 days remaining

dreamy brook Aug 26, 2024, 7:10 AM

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ITS 12:39 and well im gonna start now fr ORG CHEM FS ima attend an online lect or smthin atleast start yk, the worst thing is ik i just need to start BUT I KEEP PROCRASTINATING AAAAAAAAA

dreamy brook Aug 26, 2024, 7:37 AM

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i did study for a while and then im back, now that i've stopped for even a min, its gonna be hard to get back on track

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yk start again

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AAAAAAA i'll start the 15 min thing thanks 🥹

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never tried tbh, I mean I have but sometimes it works sometimes it doesn't

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alr off to complete the partly attended lecture 🧍 (13:15)

dreamy brook Aug 26, 2024, 10:38 AM

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its like 16:08 and I am going back to studying organic, I took a break in b/w and had some lunch and stuff. Hard to get back on track yk but I'll start now again.

dreamy brook Aug 26, 2024, 11:48 AM

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i studied some more and then i didnt and now i am again going to? its crazy i cant keep track of time

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ITS LIKE TIMES FLYING SO FAST and I have so much to cover up

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I'm still covering up last years organic before this year's starts or i'll be clueless

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BUT ITS TAKING SO LONG?

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and i have exams in like 16 days and ITS NOT JUST ORGANIC CHEM

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its physical chem too

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physics too

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PSYCHOLOGY TOO

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BIOLOGY TOOO

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ENG TOO

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man

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theres no time left

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aaaaaaaaaa

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welp

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i'll prob skip psych, bio and eng for the days right before the exam or smthing

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i'll only focus on physics and chem rn

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that seems like the only way to catch up w such a large syllabus

#Trying to fix my life.