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Okay let me start with this. TW: || Thoughts of suicide||
Welp. Here goes 30 Minutes of my life doing this. (Not that i want a life anymore)
I feel stuck. Stuck in a rock and a hard place. I try to hide that i dont wanna kill mysef and that im afraid and the only reason i do this is because im afraid.
I dont want people to deal with my problems because i dont want to be left alone. (If that makes sense.)
Main reason being that i always listen to people vent to me about their problems and stuff like that. but whenever i vent to someone im never heard or they just say “Damn” Or “That sucks”
God. I want this to end.
If i ever do vent to someone im always reprimanded for it and punished because i didnt tell them or they just dont try to help me at all. Now i feel scared because now im in that mess now genuinely terrified of what people think of me.
Im stuck in a loop.
Its all my fault. Its not my fault. Its all my fault. Its not my fault. I just want it to be over. I want it to end. I dont want to be here anymore. I genuinely contemplate ||Suicide|| Because i feel like thats the only solution to this.
Edit: Left some parts out.
Im genuinely afraid if im gonna be the reason that people harm themselves. Its all my fault because of the people i trusted. Now i feel like my friends are going to wanna die because i barely came
put to them about me being suicidal.
-# God im so sorry. I shouldnt be here anymore.