I have felt through out my life being the "odd ball" if you know what I mean, I still have a lot of life ahead but I'm still going through things that have made me see myself as someone who can't really find his self. I'm also going through an addiction and I just feel like I'm not good enough, this addiction has really taken over my life because it has gotten me at a very young age, and when I try to get away from it I always come back every single time. So, I want to try to be better but I just feel like I'm not good enough, and no I don't mean this in any suicidal type of ways. I'm just sad.
#I feel like I can't be good enough.
iron cypress
next thorn
You’ll eventually get over it
I promise you
I mean I can’t be talking
But I know for you atleast
You’ll see another day
steady spoke
Since what you're talking about is definitely pornography addiction, you're probably screwed. To break free of that, you need to change your entire lifestyle. It's not like alcohol or weed, this is literally the strongest activation of your reward circuitry, and it's probably been getting those hits since you were 11. You can't just turn off the faucet.
Work on other things you don't like about yourself. If you bite your nails, work on breaking that habit. If you don't brush your teeth every day, work on that. Slowly make yourself into the kind of guy that wouldn't watch adult content, and eventually it'll come true without you consciously thinking about it.