Occasional Echo Chamber

[raven cargo]

gonna copy paste what i said in #venting-1 in here

Guy who i knew kinda fucked off and stopped talking to me because of some dumb stuff we said that i didnt mean, i dont think he meant it either. Never said bye to him, my last words to him were telling him i didnt want to talk to him and that i was glad he was going through it. Its been years but thats one of my biggest regrets

wherever he is, i hope he realizes he was the most important friend anyone could have and that he values himself

i dont need him back, i just want him to take care of himself

he had problems with self hatred and self harm, i probably didnt help

wherever he is now, i just gotta hope he found someone who properly values him and treats him how he deserves

what a load of shit, i couldve been so much better to him and i wasnt

for what purpose? i was angry and felt unsupported when he was right there helping me at every turn

there is absolutely no reason things had to go the way they did and now we'll never talk again.

i think back to the moments of hanging out with him, going to bumper cars, playing vr games together. there is nothing that makes me more sad and angry than my own selfish actions

I shouldnt be sharing this

what i should be doing is writing this down somewhere, do i really need to yell at a tiny screen about my problems?

everything about this entire thought process doesnt make sense and you know it

you cant even trust it because how could it all be real

you are for a proven fact, unreliable in your own narration